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Friday, August 30, 2002
Thank God the final exams are over. The only thing that i am trying not to worry much about are my grades..... I just hope that we all pass our subjects! I am really wary about what my grade in digisys might be. i hope that i could at least get a passing grade of 1.0...
Jo, i also like taking those online quizzes. =) There are also quizzes given through Emode, and i guess i had already subscribed to Emode. =) I enjoy taking those tests though sometimes you just can't believe how true or how "unbelievable" the results are. hehe. :) Well Jo, i do hope that we do get to do what we want to once we graduate. :)
Lately, i have been drowning myself with Anime. =) i bought over 120 vcds from Poa. =)
I am not really doing much lately, just watching tv and anime. I will be taking driving lessons on Sept. 4, 5, and 7. My mom told me that i could practice driving whenever i go to school next term. hehehe :) let us see what happens to me. =) i hope that i could get me and my brother to school on time. =) Oh, and by the way, my mom sent me to Slimmer's World this Tuesday, Aug. 27, and she even told me to get a personal trainer, and paid for 25 sessions. Well, there is no backing out for me now. She has also ordered that i eat oatmeal (yuck....) for my dinner. What am i gonna do? ?? ?????
Oh well, better days will surely come!
Oh, my cousin Mike's wife, Cynthia, is pregnant! When i heard about it i was so excited and still am. And to think of it, we will be seeing them again on October, during my cousin Maureen's(Mike's sister) wedding (and i am one of the bridesmaid.....).
Oh well, see you all soon! ("-")
Jo, i also like taking those online quizzes. =) There are also quizzes given through Emode, and i guess i had already subscribed to Emode. =) I enjoy taking those tests though sometimes you just can't believe how true or how "unbelievable" the results are. hehe. :) Well Jo, i do hope that we do get to do what we want to once we graduate. :)
Lately, i have been drowning myself with Anime. =) i bought over 120 vcds from Poa. =)
I am not really doing much lately, just watching tv and anime. I will be taking driving lessons on Sept. 4, 5, and 7. My mom told me that i could practice driving whenever i go to school next term. hehehe :) let us see what happens to me. =) i hope that i could get me and my brother to school on time. =) Oh, and by the way, my mom sent me to Slimmer's World this Tuesday, Aug. 27, and she even told me to get a personal trainer, and paid for 25 sessions. Well, there is no backing out for me now. She has also ordered that i eat oatmeal (yuck....) for my dinner. What am i gonna do? ?? ?????
Oh well, better days will surely come!
Oh, my cousin Mike's wife, Cynthia, is pregnant! When i heard about it i was so excited and still am. And to think of it, we will be seeing them again on October, during my cousin Maureen's(Mike's sister) wedding (and i am one of the bridesmaid.....).
Oh well, see you all soon! ("-")
Sunday, August 25, 2002
Today, I am feeling lost. First I got scolded by my mom for causing me and my brother to leave home late for school (as if my brother is not always late when leaving the house, and it is also all his fault). Well, it could be my fault, because I could have just asked Genina to print it for us, to be signed later by our defense panelist for Infosy. I am so stupid. And now I feel sleepy.
I came to school today even if I didn’t have any test for this day because I needed to go see our DIGISYS professor so that I can get my Quiz 4 results, and that to follow up about the answers to the quizzes that were supposed to be uploaded. I am also waiting for my brother to be finished with his finals for today. Grrr… I can’t even study because I am so bored.
My sister came back from Singapore last night. After staying there for one month, her boyfriend, who broke up with her on June, went to see her there at Singapore last Friday. I just don’t know why she suddenly came back. I know that she thinks she loves the guy, but she should have given more time to thinking about making the decision of coming home. She says that he changed a lot, but I do not believe so, well for now. I am personally, in a way, against him. He will still be under our scrutiny until we think he is worthy enough for my sister. Hmmph!
I came to school today even if I didn’t have any test for this day because I needed to go see our DIGISYS professor so that I can get my Quiz 4 results, and that to follow up about the answers to the quizzes that were supposed to be uploaded. I am also waiting for my brother to be finished with his finals for today. Grrr… I can’t even study because I am so bored.
My sister came back from Singapore last night. After staying there for one month, her boyfriend, who broke up with her on June, went to see her there at Singapore last Friday. I just don’t know why she suddenly came back. I know that she thinks she loves the guy, but she should have given more time to thinking about making the decision of coming home. She says that he changed a lot, but I do not believe so, well for now. I am personally, in a way, against him. He will still be under our scrutiny until we think he is worthy enough for my sister. Hmmph!
Thursday, August 22, 2002
This is how i "am" if i am a guy....
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Unbelievable? Believe it! Hahahahahaha! ("-")
What type of Bishounen are you? Find out at artificial-soul.net by Rin.
Unbelievable? Believe it! Hahahahahaha! ("-")
WHAT'S IN YOUR NAME?
YOU'D BE SURPRISED!
Recent studies by name societies disclosed that names influence character and do have a definite bearing upon one's life path. letters carry their own energy patterns relating to personality traits and needs. Name analysis using letter qualities is called ACROPHONOLOGY. This analysis of your name is a brief summary of the hidden meanings found within the letters of your own name.
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NAME ANALYSIS FOR: Grace Sim Limtanhoa
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Grace:
You strive for perfection and worry when things don't turn out just so. You enjoy doing a job well. You tend to procrastinate. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You are clever, inventive, imaginative and youthful. You enjoy socializing. You can be quite inventive and quite curious.
Sim:
Status is important to you and your ability to achieve success and earn money. You have a need to be noticed and seek status. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You are always involved with projects and things to do.
Limtanhoa:
You are fair-minded sometimes to the point of being opinionated. You have a strong need to be loved and appreciated. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You need to learn when to let go. Your privacy is important to you. You have a rich inner life. You have a need to be up front. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You have a need to be up front.
YOU'D BE SURPRISED!
Recent studies by name societies disclosed that names influence character and do have a definite bearing upon one's life path. letters carry their own energy patterns relating to personality traits and needs. Name analysis using letter qualities is called ACROPHONOLOGY. This analysis of your name is a brief summary of the hidden meanings found within the letters of your own name.
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NAME ANALYSIS FOR: Grace Sim Limtanhoa
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Grace:
You strive for perfection and worry when things don't turn out just so. You enjoy doing a job well. You tend to procrastinate. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You are clever, inventive, imaginative and youthful. You enjoy socializing. You can be quite inventive and quite curious.
Sim:
Status is important to you and your ability to achieve success and earn money. You have a need to be noticed and seek status. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You are always involved with projects and things to do.
Limtanhoa:
You are fair-minded sometimes to the point of being opinionated. You have a strong need to be loved and appreciated. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You need to learn when to let go. Your privacy is important to you. You have a rich inner life. You have a need to be up front. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You have a need to be up front.
Just took a test from
Very Scary!
Paranoid
Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long grudges.
Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."
Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.
Antisocial
A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.
Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.
Histrionic
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.
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Narcissistic
Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.
Avoidant
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.
Dependent
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.
Obsessive-Compulsive
Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.
Very Scary!
| Disorder | Rating |
| Paranoid: | Moderate |
| Schizoid: | Low |
| Schizotypal: | Low |
| Antisocial: | Low |
| Borderline: | Very High |
| Histrionic: | High |
| Narcissistic: | High |
| Avoidant: | High |
| Dependent: | Moderate |
| Obsessive-Compulsive: | High |
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Paranoid
Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long grudges.
Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."
Schizotypal
Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.
Antisocial
A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.
Borderline
Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.
Histrionic
People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.
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Narcissistic
Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.
Avoidant
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.
Dependent
Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.
Obsessive-Compulsive
Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.
Thanks Che! =) Will do try to be a good journalist. =) hehehehe =)
This week we had our SOFTENG project demo, a re-presentation of our Filipi Research, Projman project demo. We will be having our INFOSY1 defense tomorrow. Oh, i just hope we pass all our subjects... Don't want to be delayed with our thesis..... i am having big trouble with my grades in Digisys though....
Whenever we work on our projects, i sometimes end up staring, and i can't think straight. Damn all those projects!
I hope everybody is doing okay. I am looking forward to the end of the term, and that hopefully i can get all my course cards on Course Card Day. And that i will be able to take statpro with Drew, Che, Ad, Carlo, Jo, Johnny, Caleb.......
Take care! =)
("-")
This week we had our SOFTENG project demo, a re-presentation of our Filipi Research, Projman project demo. We will be having our INFOSY1 defense tomorrow. Oh, i just hope we pass all our subjects... Don't want to be delayed with our thesis..... i am having big trouble with my grades in Digisys though....
Whenever we work on our projects, i sometimes end up staring, and i can't think straight. Damn all those projects!
I hope everybody is doing okay. I am looking forward to the end of the term, and that hopefully i can get all my course cards on Course Card Day. And that i will be able to take statpro with Drew, Che, Ad, Carlo, Jo, Johnny, Caleb.......
Take care! =)
("-")
Sunday, August 18, 2002
Jo, let's hibernate after the finals. haha! =)
well, i just hope that i can learn to make do with what i have. we are already in comsci, so we just can't change anything, or else we affect a lot of people. Things are so interconnected, even when we thought it weren't. I know that i love my parents and so, but i always feel i want what i always wanted to be. And i don't get to be who i am because it is either do this or that, whatever it is that my parents decide. although some decisions i make myself, but usually they criticize me because i always make the wrong decision, they know best, but how would i learn what is a good and a bad decision? It is as if when i want to decide by myself, they would say that i am not ready yet. if i ask them to decide, they would telll me that i should learn how to make my own decisions.... i don't know....
I still want to go to my dream world..... I want to be myself. I don't want to always please others. i just want to be plain old grace. grumpy, sad/depressed yet sometimes so happy to the possibility of being crazy. =) i want to be a doctor, or a writer, or an artist. i just want to be me, me, me. i want to go to Europe or Japan and live there. i want to follow who i want to be....
hayyyyy!...... ("-")
well, i just hope that i can learn to make do with what i have. we are already in comsci, so we just can't change anything, or else we affect a lot of people. Things are so interconnected, even when we thought it weren't. I know that i love my parents and so, but i always feel i want what i always wanted to be. And i don't get to be who i am because it is either do this or that, whatever it is that my parents decide. although some decisions i make myself, but usually they criticize me because i always make the wrong decision, they know best, but how would i learn what is a good and a bad decision? It is as if when i want to decide by myself, they would say that i am not ready yet. if i ask them to decide, they would telll me that i should learn how to make my own decisions.... i don't know....
I still want to go to my dream world..... I want to be myself. I don't want to always please others. i just want to be plain old grace. grumpy, sad/depressed yet sometimes so happy to the possibility of being crazy. =) i want to be a doctor, or a writer, or an artist. i just want to be me, me, me. i want to go to Europe or Japan and live there. i want to follow who i want to be....
hayyyyy!...... ("-")
Monday, August 12, 2002
Jo and Johnny, thanks for signing my guestbook. =) Johnny, i am very sorry for not adding you to my links yet. =) probably when i get a new layout. =)
Yes, the poem posted on August 5 was written by me. =) I really felt, well i don't really know what i did felt, but it was kinda sad. Probably still regretting decisions that i made in life. I still dream of becoming a doctor or a journalist. That was what i really wanted since i was 7 or since i can remember.
right now, i feel weird. very tired. too tired for comfort. sleeping every instance i can. weird.....
Yes, the poem posted on August 5 was written by me. =) I really felt, well i don't really know what i did felt, but it was kinda sad. Probably still regretting decisions that i made in life. I still dream of becoming a doctor or a journalist. That was what i really wanted since i was 7 or since i can remember.
right now, i feel weird. very tired. too tired for comfort. sleeping every instance i can. weird.....
Sunday, August 04, 2002
The clouds are moving with the gentle wind
As I look out to see a matching blue sky.
My mind filled with mixed feelings
Fear, happiness, contentment, uncertainty.
My life going forward and back.
Going to a destination unknown
Following blindly a dream
A dream I never really knew
Just a mere illusion
A mere subreality.
I submerged myself
In a life I never really imagined
Dreaming always of different dreams
Dreams never coming to me
Dreams in the middle of forever
My heart seems heavier
I feel its pain
But never understanding
What it really feels
How it really hurts
And deep within my mind’s recesses
Too many thoughts pass by
Of how life should have been lived
Of how I should have acted
Of how I should have done a lot of other things
Of how I should have smiled
And laughed
And cried
Tears have dried up
As the next day comes
I should have started something
Something different today
And see it to the end
until my life ends.
As I look out to see a matching blue sky.
My mind filled with mixed feelings
Fear, happiness, contentment, uncertainty.
My life going forward and back.
Going to a destination unknown
Following blindly a dream
A dream I never really knew
Just a mere illusion
A mere subreality.
I submerged myself
In a life I never really imagined
Dreaming always of different dreams
Dreams never coming to me
Dreams in the middle of forever
My heart seems heavier
I feel its pain
But never understanding
What it really feels
How it really hurts
And deep within my mind’s recesses
Too many thoughts pass by
Of how life should have been lived
Of how I should have acted
Of how I should have done a lot of other things
Of how I should have smiled
And laughed
And cried
Tears have dried up
As the next day comes
I should have started something
Something different today
And see it to the end
until my life ends.
Jo, well, i hope that she really gets to find a job soon. thanks. =)
hayyyy! project-project.
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hayyyy! project-project.
("-")
Thursday, August 01, 2002
Jo, baka nga masarap duon. but i heard from my cousins who live there that mas mainit daw dun compared dito. okay lang naman kung mas independent ang kabataan doon, as long as safe diba? Confused, i am confused about a lot of things, including myself. =)
Che, baka nga bored din sister ko eh. she is staying with our cousin there. walang phone dun sa place nila, basta small room, baka apartments, that is why she must go down dun sa payphone, basta phone, to call to us. tapos la din computer dun sa place ng pinsan ko( i remembered i asked her a few days before she left what she would like to bring with her that would remind her of me. she told me that she wants my laptop. but of course, i didn't give it to her. hehehe) she is still trying to find a job, and i hope that she finds one soon. =)
gotta go! ("-")
Che, baka nga bored din sister ko eh. she is staying with our cousin there. walang phone dun sa place nila, basta small room, baka apartments, that is why she must go down dun sa payphone, basta phone, to call to us. tapos la din computer dun sa place ng pinsan ko( i remembered i asked her a few days before she left what she would like to bring with her that would remind her of me. she told me that she wants my laptop. but of course, i didn't give it to her. hehehe) she is still trying to find a job, and i hope that she finds one soon. =)
gotta go! ("-")
