Grace's Mind-it-on-your-own

Guys, I am sorry if there are no links yet, either for the other pages or for my guestbook. I don't know what was wrong with my blog, either the template of the page of itself or with blogger. But anyway, at least i can blog now, thanks to Drew for making the necessary changes. Drew, let's work on a new layout for my page when we both have the time. =) Guys, if you want to sign my guestbook, just go to

To everyone reading this, thank you for visiting my site, especially to those who visit my site often. THANKS! =_)

guys, here is a "collection" of what i would have been blogging or posting. I am really sorry about the delay. Thanks to Drew for remedying the problem i had with my blog. =)

September 24, 2002 4:53pm

I have stayed in school today for almost eight hours. Every time I try to study, I end up doing other things, such as surfing the net etc… I can’t even finish our theopro case study though I know that it is due tomorrow. I just can’t think! It feels like that today; the Lobby is not conducive for learning when it should. I am trying to clear my mind of noise, of unwanted thoughts so that I can start doing/finishing our (JL and me) case study. One way of doing so is typing this down when I can’t even post my blogs, and by listening to mp3s.

(I am really sorry for not posting for so long. There is something with my blogger. I can’t access Drew’s ftp site, so I can’t make any changes. Most of the blogs I will be posting will be delayed. I am really, really sorry. )

Despite everything that I want to do today, my mind feels so at unease. Well, it was really hot during lunch time, but that shouldn’t be the case now, since it is already gloomy. Probably I am just hungry. (and by the way, when I was checking some sites, there was some sort of virus with ie5 that I don’t know for sure if my computer is not infected with any, and I mean just any virus, right now….)

Enough with that…

But when I think of people, I end up seeing them bad, though I know that there are few nice souls there. We destroy each other for no other reason but to be the best or to be the first. I mean it is not bad to be the best that we can be, but when start loathing other people, when we envy people, when do something bad (using people, bad-mouthing people etc…) that will help us reach that level of greatness, we end up the worst of our kind.

I know that I shouldn’t be meddling on other people’s affairs. But right now, I just want to release all or everything that is in my mind. Why can’t I be as good as others are? Why am I here, in this very spot, blogging, but not doing what should be done? Why am I not acting on doing what I should? Why do I envy others being so industrious, when I should be acting on it right away so that I will be as industrious as they are? Why do people hate people who are different from them? Why do people mock other people? Why do people see themselves to great for others that they put these so-called “low” people down? Why do we even get to have minds and intelligence when we use it for ill purposes? Why are our mind filled with the filth that is brought about by the evil side of things? Why do we feel so insecure, tense when we shouldn’t because we are all just humans? Why do other people feel happy, when others don’t? Why do we need to ask these questions when one can do what one needs to fulfill one’s duties, responsibilities? Why do all the worthless people be put into good positions in life that they do not really deserve?

Questions…. Do I have any more questions? Yes, I do. I just can’t put the other thoughts into words. I just sometime hate a lot of things, not just myself, but everything else that cause hate…..

GRRRRR……

Does any of you have a solution for this?


AND HERE ARE TESTS THAT I TOOK::::



Mysterious and a scholar, you are a member of the Tremere clan. You are pretty loyal to your clan, well, you sort of have to...especially since you are blood-bonded to most of them. You are the intelligentsia of the Camarilla and are fascinated with the occult. Possessing the ability to use blood for magic, many clans don't like to approach you. However, that is fine with you. You tend not to trust the other clans anyway.

What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?

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i am extremely intelligent and very wise. i think logically and rhetorically in order to get problems solved. if i'm not mad now, i'm getting very close.

target="new" title="we're all mad here">how mad are you?

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what's your inner flower?

[c] s u g a r d
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What's YOUR Inner Hair Color?




This empath is wise, and kindly, and percieves the world with their heart.

What Obernewtyn Character
are you?

Primary Ability: Farseeker Healers are gentle people, gifted with the ability to heal others with the strength of their own minds. They can examine a person's body and aura, helping them to recover from injury or sickness. Healers never put themselves first, and can be generous to a fault.
Secondary Ability: Healer
What is your Misfit Talent?

How Are You Smart?

Which X/1999 characters are you?

Quiz made by Chesa



Which X/1999 characters are you?

Quiz made by Chesa



What's your Style? Find out here!

Quiz made by Chesa


Which Hellsing character are you?

I am an ESSAY WRITER

I like to take an analytical and objective approach to the subjects I write about. By telling the hard truth without any frills I make lots of enemies as well as lots of friends.

Which Fushigi Yuugi Seishi are you? @ xirculo{dot}com

Hi guys! i was driving along today, at monumento, at the rotunda, and i hit the car. gosh! it was all my fault. Luckily, it was only small. But they were asking me to pay them seven thousand.

Well, i didn't have 7000 then, so they can't expect me to pay. anyway, i told them so and that we could probably settle this problem through the insurance. they wouldn't budge. i called my dad first, and asked what i should do. when this old guy driving the other vehicle told me to just pay 7000 and that our insurance is just TPL (third party liability), i called my dad again. as i listened to my dad, this old guy kept on telling me to just pay the 7000 so that we could get on with our lives. My dad something about the old guy probably having problem with his insurance, probably the old guy was the one with the TPL insurance, no comprehensive insurance. Since i am at lost of words and i didn't thought that my dad was just explaining it to me(meaning i must not tell him about it), so i told the guy that it was probably his insurance that has the problem (in filipino, "Baka insurance niyo ho ang may problema"). When he heard that, he agreed with my proposal now, after saying it to him over and over again, to go the the Police station and ask for a police report for the efficient processing of the insurance.

When we got there, we(me and my driver) with the old guy and his 3 other friends, waited for my cousin, Ate Ana. She talked with the police and looked over such matters whenever the need arises/this problems come up. While doing so, she saw the old guy trying to bribe the policeman. She stopped the old guy and told him that he need not do so because i admitted that i was the one at fault, that i hit his car. After that, he called us out, telling me that i should be careful with my words since i am chinese, and a girl, as such. He told me that i said that probably you are the one with the problem (in filipino, "baka kayo ho ang may problema") when didn't even say anything like that. Anyway, i was going to accept it as an advice from an elder but then he added that he went and played golf with a GENERAL. the nerve, trying to frighten me, but he was not successful. Well, we did get to wrap it up that day.

a few days later, Ate Ana called him to follow up about this incident. After days and days of calling, he said that we didn't need to push through with the insurance thing, that we don't need to pay anymore, since it would be just a bother to his and our schedule of activities(this was what he said over the phone). Weird, right? But anyway, i am in a way lucky. =)

"sort of type of person thingie quiz"

Omae wa dochira juunishi no MEMBAA desu ka?
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"Where in Middle-earth do i live?"

If I lived in Middle-Earth, it would be in: Lothlorien or Rivendell You prefer the tranquilty and peacefulness of nature and enjoy the milder seasons of the year. While you know it is necessary to keep in contact with other living beings, most of the time you enjoy the seclusion of an aesthetically pleasing, woodland environment. Take the "Where in Middle-Earth Would I Live?" Quiz by skepticism

"What sort/type of shoe am i?"

What are you? Visit survey.JUNKIE!

"sandmand or eternal being?????"

Which Sandman Character Are You?



"if I am with my special someone, this is what the quiz results are:"

What (yaoi) anime pairing are you?


this quiz was made by Eike and Mirai

September 17, 2002, 8:39 AM

Yesterday afternoon, I drove home from SM Manila Bay, driving through EDSA until we have reached SM North Edsa, then we made a U-turn somewhere and then turned right to West Ave., and then turning right again at Baler St. then turning right again at the end of Baler to Roosevelt Avenue and then turned right to our place. =)

The truth is, my legs hurt much more after driving home for almost one and a half hour. I can bear the pain, but still with the aches of exercising still felt the added pain from driving makes my body hurt much more. I am still able to walk around and do stuff, only thing is every time I move, it hurts. But my dad said that probably when I am used to driving, then my body won’t ache all over. =)

I have finished the first of the three books of Lord of the Rings. I am now reading the Second Book, The Two Towers. (I haven’t started much studying yet. Instead of reading the Theopro book, I was doing something with the roll of red yarn that we have at home, sort of braiding it. I’ll let you guys see it if I finish it, and if I ever get to bring it school or scan it or something. [Well, I did finish this “braid” by 10AM, Sept. 17.])

I just hate it when the LAN at La Salle is not working. It would have been much faster than the connection at home, well, since I need to download and install the compiler for the programming language Python from www.python.org . At home, the connection sometimes starts slow, but loads fast, then as time progresses from a minute to an hour, the connection gets slower. Shouldn’t the connection be faster if you are logged on long enough?????????

Anyway, I would probably upload this blog once I can get myself to connect to the internet.

See you all then! (“-“)

I don't know, but i think there is something wrong with blogger. Anyway, :).

Che, and Jo, thank you for signing my guestbook today. =) Just got back from Digisys class and decided to spent the hour before Linalge here at g304b. =) I am now with J.L. =)

Anyway Jo, how did your AFTERNOON go? :)

See ya all! =)

Oh, and Drew, thanks for the page. =) you guys can see it at drew.ph/grace.html

Hi Drew, Hi Jo!

Well, i went to Slimmer's World yesterday, Sept. 14. When i got there, i was asked to walked on the treadmill for at most 20 minutes as my cardiovascular exercise. After that, my PT Irene, helped me with stretchings etc... Then there were some "exercise" with use of weights. i can't and don't know how to explain how everything went that much. Anyway, I started 9 am, and the whole "exercise" lasted until 1030 am. I will be going back on Sept. 21. By 1030am, my body was sort of aching, as it still does right now. =) Irene told me not to walk so fast because my body is just getting used to the "exercise" and she's right. I walked slowly until i reached our car, with the driver waiting inside. I then told him if it is okay if i drive home. Well, i did drive home. from Edsa, to West Avenue, then to Baler, and then Roosevelt. The car's engine went off twice. When i did get home, i almost hit the guards at the gate because i didn't manuever the steering wheel back from the extreme right (you see, the car i was driving is not power steering, so you have to turn the steering wheel extremely to the right if you have to do a sharp right turn). But anyway, i was able to drive from SM annex up to our place. But at least i didn't hit anything or anyone on the way home. =) I do know that i still need more practice. Probably next Saturday. =)

anyway, i am still somewhat dazed for reasons i don't know why. And my body still aches all over. Well, see you all at school! =)

("-")

Jo, so far, i haven't gone to Slimmer's World pa, and i have to make a schedule. More or less it would be workout, with a personal trainer guiding what should be done, etc.... =) As for driving, well, i have to practice first, but since the oldest car that i was supposed to use for practice driving is still going under repair, then we have to wait a little longer. =)

see you all at school. =)

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I have just finished watching “Ayashi No Ceres”. (i kept this series, the rest of my other vcds are kept in a box, as they were surrendered to my parents. hehe)As everyone else who have watched this and if they felt the same way that I did, I guess we would all would say that this is great anime, with depth, meaning, full of hope for what we can all do for our future, with love.

It also shares to us that it is through love that people are moved toward to the future and to create life (have children), another human being that would not just testify for their love for each other, but also for their love of the child/ren, and the future that they, as a family, will give to the world. (The meaning of being born, about living, and of love. That people around us, those that we love and loved us, have taught us precious things. To be with the people we love and to live, together forever, in our hearts and mind.) The ending tells us what the central theme(?) is, “We entrust the future on the many children that will be born. Bring the joy of happiness to our children.” Children all over the world feel pain, from unloving parents; some are strong enough to face all the pain, and others don’t. Some can fight and make something good about it, others don’t and they only think of revenge, full of cynicism. If we could make and create a loving home for our children, wouldn’t it be much easier for us and the world, and better yet, for the future?

It also shares that love, despite of all pain, that the love felt for all that one loves will help one be strong, to fight for your life, and everyone else’s lives, as long as love endures… It is really funny how love, as the strongest of all feelings, can be both strength and/or weakness. It can help people do great things, but it can also lead them to destroy; it can lead to more love, or it can lead to hate, jealousy, pain, sadness. How do we, as humans, be able to find what love really is, if we end up distorting it or showing it in other ways, painful ways? That despite knowing that we love those that are dear to us, that we still hate some people who will be dangerous to the people that we love. We are cynics, hypocrites, liars…. But I know that it is really hard to love someone, and hate another. I know that most of us, if not blinded by hate or anger or jealousy, would do something good not just for oneself, but also for everyone else. But I guess we have to learn to do that, still in a way, being smart. We cannot just always give, not thinking of what our actions may lead to. In our world, there are people who take advantage of people who share their love, and they depend on the loving people or if not, they abuse them. But I guess this is why this loving people, though unnamed and sometimes hurt, are great people, because they live to share love and to help, despite being in some way foolish, because they know that sharing love will, in one way or another, affect the outcome of what may or will happen…

Did you guys understand what I was babbling about? =) I don’t know, but anyway, just wanna share. =)

(“-“) =)

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September 8, 2002 10:10 AM

Last Friday, September 6, I was able to go out with my friends(you know who you all are) to watch the movie “Lilo and Stitch”. And you know what, I even cried during some of the scenes. Am I weird? I hope not. I just felt so touched, that I empathize with some of the characters. After that we went around the mall(PowerPlant) a little. I did enjoy this “going out” with friends because it was the first time I was able to since my first year in college. When I was in high school, it is usually going to the home of your classmate or something like that. I was rarely able to go out to malls, probably just once or twice, and the only place where we hang out a little late was at Starbucks. This is why going out with my college friends is great for me. You guys know that once we graduate, it would be hard to see each other, but I know we still could.

Yesterday, September 7, the daughter of a family friend, named Venice, invited me to a CCF(Christ’s Community Fellowship) youth service. At first I went because my mom told me that I should so that Venice could spend time with some of us because her mom, sister and brother are in Canada. She is here with her dad, taking up BS Biology at Ateneo. So, I did go with her. When we reached the place, I thought that I would not be coming back here because I feel so out of place. But I stayed, and listened to the sermon after the Praise and Worship. After that, there was this break-up thing, break up to your cel group. That was the time when I met her cel group which included the following(I don’t if this are the correct spelling, but still…): Rina, Kathy, Trina, Ann/Hans, Nicole and Ratchel. They are all girls, who I think graduated high school from Brent(International School). I just kept quiet while they share their problems and thoughts on certain things. Then they asked me about my week, and I shared about me failing Digisys(Digital System), and how I was grounded not to watch tv, clean up my table, surrender all audio CDs and VCDs, and confiscation of laptop will be made if they caught me watching tv. After that, Venice invited me to the Pua-Tiong-Chiu of one of Hans/Ann for September 21. Although I am really shy about going to that event because I am just new in their group, well I did answer that I could go. Of course, Ann said that it would be okay, and I do hope that it is and will be okay. By that time, I felt much more relaxed around them, since I felt differently before the break-up-to-your-cel-group. They are nice people, if you come to think of it. And I did enjoy spending that afternoon with them. By now, I said that going back next Saturday, and the Saturdays following that would be nice.

Venice drove me home then. My sister and her boyfriend invited me and my brother to watch a movie at G4. We watched BOURNE IDENTITY. I was dizzy while watching because we were like sitting at the second of the front rows near the screen. The story is okay. Not that good, but okay.

Oh, and by the way, the last hour of the five-hour driving lesson ended today. The “teacher” told me to practice the release of the clutch when I am driving in first gear, to look around you when you are at an intersection(to be careful), to not watch yourself changing the gear(watch the road), and to practice, practice, practice. Now, when can I start practicing?

Anyway, I am going to school tomorrow, September 9, for course adjustment. I have to drop STATPRO and to take up DIGISYS again. I really hope and pray that I pass all my subjects from this term onwards. I must finish and pass the Thesis on time, so that I could graduate with my batch even if I will be delayed one term because of taking up STATPRO. Hay….. Please help me God.

(“-“) See ya all, guys!