Grace's Mind-it-on-your-own

August 25, 2003 Monday

Woke up by 924am and arrived at the office by 10am. Well, did some “helping” out after which by lunch time, went back home. My mom got angry at me for forgetting about something she asked me to buy during my OJT days, the clear book plastic holders of the papers. Well she was asking me if there were still some left. I really can’t remember and told her that, and that I gave it to them if there were any pages left because I surely didn’t keep it/them with me. Well, she kept on asking, but I really can’t remember and told her that. She got angry. So when she called on my dad to go home and eat lunch, I didn’t go home with them and waited for my sister instead. They think they are always right, well , most of the time, but not always. My sister just told me to just let them be, that if I don’t want any more trouble, to just keep my mouth shut, which I did when she was getting angry and saying things. I also texted Daphne, about my mom getting angry over this small thing (it really is a small matter), and Daph replied by 214pm that she also has the same thing and that she doesn’t want to work for her parents in the future and that they have the tendency to think that they are always right. Once home, I stayed with my sister. I helped her out with some typing, since she needed me to type out the backprint of another form, since I am usually the one asked my dad to check or proofread backprints for forms we print before we show the sample to the clients. I was home from 1 to 3pm not doing anything but just lounging around. By 3pm up to 5, I was doing the typing. And since it is 5pm, work for the day is done, so I won’t go the office anymore.

Oh, one of our hamsters just gave birth to four (4) baby hamsters. :) And we thought there were no more baby hamsters to come. :0

I did try calling my OJTmate by 3pm but Bic wasn’t answering her phone. Weird. I tried calling again by 544pm; still, she wasn’t answering. Really weird. Guess I will just have to check on it on Wednesday, when I go to school for advance adjustment.

August 26, 2003
-birtday ni Arcy
-sumakit likod! Grrr..

august 27, 2003 Wednesday
-went to school. Arrived by 1020am. Waited until 130pm with Jo, Nat and Dianne. Got to see ms. Divine by about 3pm in the afternoon. Wasn’t able to get Orient3 section changed and wasn’t able to get relsfor for this term. Sorry guys!
-back still hurts and having this terrible cold still.
-home, online, eat, watch tv.

August 28, 2003 Thursday
-went with Elbert to dlsu to give my OJTmates the Student-to-company evaluation report (individually, that we have to fill out and submit.). Well, I should have woken up by 7am, but I had this dream with my best friend Daphne, my Canadian friend, and some sort of a previous dream that I had where I was running away from something, I think). Well, I woke up by 8am, the time by which we should have left. Anyway, his test started 10am,and ended 1230pm. Well, at least I got to give the forms to my OJTmates and my brother wasn’t late for the test, so lucky me, except for my still aching back.
-my first dream was that my best friend came over to sleep at our place. She arrived by 1am in the morning. I guess in the dream, she went to Ateneo for a 10pm class and on the way home, I guess there was this traffic situation and I don’t know how she got to Monumento, but anyway, she decided to stop over at our place for the night. Well, my parents welcomed her, and in fact, in the dream, I was the one who was surprised that she was in our place. :) Anyway, I went to sleep with her in the extra room in our house. Well, we were just smiling as we laid on the bed together and I asked her why she was out late and such, and she said something about going out with her parents, and then about something about their whole family going out. Anyway, I think, their plans didn’t push through since she had to go to a class. But anyway, I enjoyed her company in my dream. :) I didn’t expect her to be sleeping over so soon (well, she did sleep over at our place now, in the dream; I just hope she will be able to do so on my birthday). Well we just talked, and of course slept. She was still at our place the next day. :)) I guess I dreamed of her because she was the last person I was thinking of before I dozed off. :)
-the next dream was of me and my Canadian friend Christie. :) Well, I was sort of transported to that place from my first dream with my best friend. Well, we were just walking around some place during the night. We were looking at stuff from outside shop windows. We were just enjoying our walk. Then we had to go to a washroom. And then it was weird because she was saying something to me. And I just can’t really remember what happened, but then I was in another dream. I don’t really quite remember it, but I felt as if I was running from something. Anyway, that time, I didn’t really want to wake up yet, but then my brother came in, I sensed it and woke up. :0
-well, after dropping off the forms, I went back home, took a bath, and then went back to the office to be asked by my mom to fax and file some quotations. After lunch, my brother called asking me to bring over his testpapers to dlsu and also to pick him up from school as well. I told him that I will just ask the driver to bring it over to him, but he insisted that I go along so that there would be “communication” since the driver didn’t have his cellphone with him yet. Well, I didn’t really want to go to school due to my aching back, but anyway I went because my brother insisted. Well, after giving my brother the test paper and leaving school with him, we stopped over at St. Luke’s Hospital to collect a check. Well, on our way up to the supposed place where we were to collect the check, I missed a step and fell forward. Luckily, there was a nurse at my back when I fell forward by the stairs. She helped me up and asked if I was fine and if my knee was okay. When I assured her that I was fine, she hesitantly left. Well, when we got to the place, I was told that I should go back to where I was from and turn right somewhere. Well, we did get back there and collected the check. I was lucky that I insisted to my brother going with me in collecting the check; I told Elbert to go down with me since he insisted on me tagging along to bring his testpaper when I don’t really need to, and because of that, I insisted as well to keep my company when I go for the collection, since my back isn’t really feeling that good today. Lucky me! :)
-back at the office, I helped out in writing down or marking the missing parts of the numbering, sort of trying to make it look like the printing was okay so that there wouldn’t be any need for the customer to return the forms to us since it would be a waste; it was just the numbering, but we did try to make the numbers clearer so that there wouldn’t be any problem when the numbers are read (the control number). There would by 2s, 4s, 3s, 5s, 7s, and 9s that needs their outline to be clearer, and we just “retouched” it. :) By 5pm, I went home already. :) Watched tv, ate dinner, watched tv and now, online. :)
-back ache again. Found out that my best friend has just changed her cellphone number(from prepaid to line). :) Anyway, I texted her again before I went to sleep. :) I was already sleeping when she replied by 130am of August 29, 2003.

August 29, 2003 Friday
-replied to Daph. She called.me on my cellphone regarding my sister question on where DAph bought the slippers she gave me last Christmas, and I also asked if I could call later in the evening. She told me about the slippers, that she bought it in a tiangge in greenhills. She also told me that I can call tonight. And then she asked me if I have a cold, well hearing from my voice, and of course I said yes, with cough and back pains. Anyway, we had to hung up since she is using her cellphone.
-lunch and left with Gennet (sister) for the whole afternoon to collect checks, get samples and such. Despite the back ache, I think I enjoyed having the day out of the office and my sister and I didn’t fight over anything at all. Rather, we worked well together. Guess we were both in a good mood; well I definitely do say that I am in a good mood, looking forward to talk to my best friend. And I am reminded of memories, especially of me and my best friend. Awww. :)
-once home, watched tv and ate dinner. Can’t wait to call Daph.
-called by 815pm, make sure that I be a little late in calling. She was still eating by then, well, since I asked if she was still busy and she answered that she was still eating. Well, I asked then what time I should call, and she thought for a while. She told me that I can call by 10pm, but that it might be late or something; I assured her that I would still be up then. Well, she suddenly thought some more and suddenly started out softly, asking if I could call by 1030pm, and I said yes(well, if I can wait until 10pm, I surely can wait for 1030pm. It is just 30 minutes away. And I really am still up by then; I usually am still awake up until 1am. :)). She said that she still needed to get a paper done. Well, that is okay with me. At least I know when I call, she is ready to talk to me and give me her whole attention, not having to think of the paper that she has to finish. And so, I am back to watching tv for a while, as I wait for 1030pm to come. And I’ll get to talk to my best friend. :)
-when I did get to call, we only got to talk for 10minutes because she wasn’t finished with the paper she was working on. I knew before I called. :) Well, at least we got to talk for a while. :)
-after that, I just watched tv until my sister arrived by 12mn.
***Oh, Ruz already submitted our OJT paper requirements to Ms. Hazel since Sir Rene Molano is at Iloilo and has asked us to just give it to Hazel. Yes!!! :) at least that is done with. :)

August 30, 2003 Saturday
-woke up by 10am. Well, helped out with squeezing of fresh orange juice for us to drink by lunch time. After lunch, watched tv and then went online. After sitting for some time, I had to check my computer for virus, so I just left the laptop to run and just went to another room to let my back rest straight on the bed. Well, I ended up watching tv up until 5pm. I then took a bath and after that, watched some more tv before I ate dinner. Now, I am back to going online, since I didn’t really get to finish my checking email accounts due to this weird thing happening to my explorer.exe. We didn’t get to go out to watch movies yesterday, as we were supposed to, but my sister said yesterday that we would be going out to watch a movie tomorrow. :) Oh, this morning, I also talked to Drew over the phone; hope that we could watch Pirates of the Caribbean or Legally Blonde 2 on coursecard day. :)

August 16, 2003 Saturday
-woke up by 830am. Left to see doctor about my swollen left ear. Was prescribed antibiotics and antibacterial drops.
-drove home, hit a water pipe thingy when I was parking the car. Lucky I was home, and that I told papa right away or else he might get angry if he finds out about it from other people. Though it is weird because he didn’t get angry at me.
-lunch. Helped Elbert with his project on Busorga up to 3pm.
-3pm, left with papa to buy egg tarts from Lord Stowe’s and then we went to visit Aunt Haydee at St. Lukes. She is in there for her chemotherapy. We arrived there 415 and left almost 545pm.
-went home. Watched tv most of the night. Did go online for some time. Then Mi called and I had to call Ad about the blaster.worm thing, which is the problem with Mi’s computer right now. More or less, slept by 215am, when my sis arrived. Was keeping myself awake by reading magazine and decided to stay at the living room sofa and sleep there.

August 17, 2003 Sunday
-woke up by 10am. Watched tv. Ate lunch. Watched more tv, DVD of FRIENDS. By almost 5pm, I took a bath. After that, I went out with my mom and dad to eat Xiao long pao and congee at a restaurant in Retiro. Then went to buy some bread and ice cream at Hi-top,then bought chocolate mousse and ube cake from Red Ribbon. Got home. Ate a slice of each cake. Went to watch DVD, now of Sex and the City. Got into a sort of disagreement. Decided to go into my room. Out of sheer, I don’t know, I brushed my teeth, flossed, after which I listed down and calculated my expenses for the month of June and July. After which I just spent time deleting files from my laptop and then listening to mp3s as well, and then typing this down. It is now currently 140am and I should be sleeping because I will be leaving with Elbert tomorrow to run some errands for my dad.

August 18, 2003 Monday
-well, I woke up early to go to “help out” at my parents office. Well, I woke up early because I had to pick up a sample from a client at Makati(the truth is, I woke up late, that was why my brother had to wait for me and was late for class). Well, I arrived by 8am at the client’s office, but it was only 9am when I got to see the person. I got the sample, and chit-chatted for a while with Aunt Mary Jane (our client). :) Anyway, after that, I went back home, made the necessary changes to the sample I brought with me(this is the reason why I had to pick up the sample: to correct and make changes to the document so that it could be approved for printing.). Anyway, I really felt tired.
-Had lunch and then by 1pm, left for Laguna. Me, my dad, my uncle Victor, and the quality control person of Mayleen paper, our paper supplier, left the office to see Mrs. Yamada, the owner of Adamay International (Adamay is Yamada spelled backwards. Cool, right?) Well, we arrived there by 2pm something I guess and we went to look at the rejected printed forms and then was met by Mrs. Yamada. Well, for the rejected 9 boxes of forms to be taken out of the PEZA zone (Philippine Economic Zone Authority?), a form should be filled up and approved. So we stayed there, chatted with Mrs. Yamada up until 5pm. Well, we talked about company problems and such. And the thing I was surprised about was that Mrs. Yamada gave me this bag of Japanese goodies. :) Of course, I knew that the bag contained food, but didn’t find out what kind of goodies they were until I opened the bag of goodies when we were already on our way home. :) I seemed like a kid who got treasure, with a smile reaching both ears. Haha :)
-before we went home, we stopped by Colette’s to buy Buko pie (7 pies) and my dad bought honey as well. :)
-We arrived back at Metro Manila, home, by 8pm, just as Mrs. Yamada said. :)
-ate dinner. And then watched Charmed, and then watched some part of Children of Dune. :) And then I went to sleep. I was really tired due to the trip to and from Laguna.

August 19, 2003 Tuesday
-woke up and went to school with Elbert to return CD to Ad and to give some of those Japanese goodies to Drew. :) Well, I stayed to keep a lookout at the table that Carlo reserved for them. :) I waited for GV, but knowing that my sis (she came with us because she had other errands to run and clients to see) has some things else to do, I told her to go on and just come back for me. She told me, “bahala ka! Basta, bahala ka!” The truth is, I thought that she wasn’t going to come back for me, so I informed my brother that I will be taking the LRT home with him. And so, I stayed at school for a while. I sort of missed going to school. :) Anyway, when their class was done by 930am, I chatted with Drew and the others until they had to leave. Well, I was left with Carlo, and some more others, and of course, Johnny, Che, and Fed. Well, I did receive a text message from my sister telling me that she’s on her way to pick me up. Well, I waited until 10am with Che; we chatted for a while.
-Went to PhilamPlans and Compania de Filipinas for collection.
-Well, on the way home, the floodwaters were deep. Wow. But we were able to get home.
-ate lunch and left for a BayanTrade meeting/orientation with my dad and sis; we stopped by Ortigas to drop off something and then went to the orientation at the IBM building at Libis. The orientation already started when we arrived by 3pm. Anyway, the orientation went on until 7pm, because of me, my sister and my dad asking a lot of questions in relation to security issues. :) and of course a lot of other relevant things that the person who presented to us cannot answer. He was trying to sell the E-catolog services of the company and that’s it; if we hadn’t asked him to show us the other side/services that BayanTrade offers, he wouldn’t have and will not want to because when he showed us the supplier side of bayantrade (he only showed us the buyer side before we asked about this), more questions, and complaints, arose, therefore the meeting ended only by 7pm, mainly due to the three of us. Hehehe :) but I guess what I learned at DLSU is not a complete waste because I was able to use it to think and analyze the faults in the system they(BayanTrade) is using. (Ms. Jane Bacong did say that when we got out, even still as students of IT, we won’t be able to stop analyzing things: processes, etc… You know, most of the times, you’ll find yourself saying, “this shouldn’t be this way”, “the process would be easier if such and such…”, “the system would be better if…” and such comments. :) I did say one such “comment” when they showed a form to be filled out by the supplier. And then there was this field for “Note to buyer” and a checkbox to click if the supplier wants this note to be sent to the supplier; I mean, the checkbox is not needed anymore if the “Note to buyer” field is filled up, which means, that the supplier wants the note to be sent for sure or else there wouldn’t be any need to fill it up, right? And everyone in the room agreed with me. :) and of course, I raised other relevant questions, such as on their terms and conditions with the buyers not being thought of well because it has loopholes that is beneficial to the buyers and not to the suppliers. Of course, my sister and my dad also had such comments and questions that made the meeting go on for as long as that. :) But our supplier were glad we came and also for the questions raised. :)
-well, we got home by 8pm. Well, I watched Smallville, then the continuation of the Children of Dune mini-series. aFter that, chatted with my parents, and siblings, until 12mn. :) and of course, sleep.

August 20, 2003 Wednesday
-woke up by 7am, but went back to sleep until I woke up again by 8am and took a bath.
-went to the office by 9am. At first, I had nothing to do, but then my dad asked me to do some cut and pasting of forms which occupied me up until lunch. Hershey, a family friend, came over; she talked with my parents, since our parents are close friends. And we taught her how to use the mercury sphygmomanometer, so that she can get her dad’s blood pressure instead of her dad doing it on his own, which is really hard.
-after lunch, rested for a while. Left with my sister to fetch my brother, and then went over to pick something from my sister’s ex-boyfriend’s mom. After that, once home by 3pm, I continued on the cutting and pasting up until 5pm something. My dad, mom, sis and brother had their hair cut. I stayed behind, to finish up with what is asked of me to be done. By then, I was done. So with nothing else to do, I decided to call and ask National Bookstore and Goodwill as well if they have the following books: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Book 5, hardbound, worth 1345), The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren (recommended by my best friend, worth 250), and also the Dune books by Frank Herbert. Well, they didn’t have any of the Dune books, and the Harry Potter Book 5 is still out of stock. The Purpose Driven life is available, but then, I decided to buy it when Harry Potter is already available, so that it would only one trip to National, but then, it depends, I might go there early. :)
-I then decided to go home for a while, to return some things of mine. But then I decided to stay for a while. I didn’t know everybody was already home. Anyway, watched tv for a while, then I talked to Jo for a while since she called (I called their place this morning but her mom told me that she went to DLSU for a meeting with her thesismates so I texted Mich to tell Jo to call me once she gets home. And she did call. :) I told her that I would be taking Relsfor next term so that I could take it with Drew and the gang. Yehey! She said it was alright, and that I needn’t worry about her being alone during our breaktime since her thesis group is already planning on how and when to meet for their thesis project. :) I also told her about the EAF distribution and the Advance adjustment dates. :) I told her that she text me or inform me when she will be going for Advance Adjustment, and she said she will call or text me. :)). This morning, I also texted my OJT groupmates to text me or to inform me if they have submitted the papers required to be submitted when they submit. I just said just that, and they didn’t reply again; of course, the only reply to this would be the actual message telling me that they did already submit it, but since, they didn’t submit it yet, no replies yet, and I didn’t tell them to text me if they did get my message. But then I must remind myself to check up on them.
-went back to the office. I had to ask my dad to check my work, and then we made some corrections. aFter that, I went back home, and watched tv for a while until I sensed that they were already eating, and they were. After dinner, watched tv again, more of Children of Dune, and then Lizzie Maguire. After that, I brushed my teeth and started typing this down, as well as the journal entries for August 18 and 19. :) My sis not home yet, as of now, 1148pm, well she just got back home, from her meeting/badminton match with some of her high school friends.

August 21, 2003 Thursday
I had a hard time waking up again today, but well, I was able to leave home with my brother. We reached DLSU by 830am. I went to get the check that needed to be collected from La Salle and then I went on to get my EAF. After that, I went on to PBCOM to bring over the document for approval. Well, Aunt Mary Jane wasn’t there, so I talked with Mr. Emil Papa. After that, I went home. On the way home, I would remember Daph, Drew and a lot others, more or less memories and “wish could come true in the future” thoughts. :) Of course, I would smile and feel good. I especially remembered my best friend when we passed by Corinthian Gardens on the way home. Imagine how many times I pass by Corinthian Gardens but am not able to visit my best friend.

Once home, I reported to my dad and listened to their talk. And of course, there was one weird thing at home. When we cracked 2 eggs opened, the white ones, not the native eggs, instead of the egg whites being “clear”, it was yellowish green! Yuck!

Well, anyway, after lunch, I helped my sister in typing out the Terms and Conditions for the back print of one of the form that we are to print for a client. Once done, we printed the form samples, and then showed it to mama. Well, now, 313pm, my sister just came back home from talking with my mom about the form etc…. Anyway, we are thinking of visiting Aunt Haydee at their Libis place. She has been going to chemotherapy, as I had seen her just last Saturday. I hope she gets better soon. :0 Please pray for her. :0 Anyway, we can’t leave yet because my sister has to finish the “typesetting”. I don’t really know how to do the typesetting, so I can’t help out yet. :0

After that, we ended up lounging around at home. We talked for a while. After that, we didn’t get on to visiting Aunt Haydee because the typesetting thing that my sister was doing just wasn’t approved by ma, so we decided to go out anymore. I then took a bath. And I guess the rest of the night, I just spent it at home, watching tv and such.

August 22, 2003 Friday

No classes and no work. :) I woke up by 9am in the morning, and just watched tv and used my computer. We also “networked” my laptop and my brother’s computer. More or less that was what I did for the day. :) I can’t really remember what I did this day, but then I knew that I was just at home most of the day. That night, watched tv and then was networked to my brother’s computer again. I slept by 1am.

August 23, 2003 Saturday

Woke up by 8am to get to gym by 9am. After gym, I bought CD-Rs and prepaid internet cards. After lunch, burned a copy of the CD of fonts so that I could return the original copy of the fonts cd to the office and the other to be left at home. After that, I also burned a cd copy of the Korean songs that Ad did burn for me in the past. After that, my sister and I spent time together since she wants to burn some MP3s into the CD-Rs that she asked me to buy this morning. But then I have to leave by 330pm for my orthodontist’s appointment. I drove to the orthodontist’s and drove back home as well. :) Oh, the rubber thingy on my braces is colored blue or light blue I think. :) (Hear that Carlo? :) ). Well, when I got home, Ate Rems had a day off, so more or less by 6pm, my mom asked me to call North Park for delivery. After dinner, I washed the dishes. My sister went out to meet with her friends to watch a movie by 6pm. (Though my sister did say that we will be going out on August 29. :) Yippee! :)). After the dishes, more or less watched tv up until 12mn, when my sis got home. :) And then I slept.

August 24, 2003 Sunday

I woke up by 9am. I tried the CD of Korean songs that I did burn for my sister yesterday at her car’s cd player. It was not working, as she said last night, though the cd would play if we used the cd players at home. There was this mark at the cd player in her car (40Wx4). I think it means that it can only read those cds written at the speed of 40x, right? I dunno. :)

Well, watched tv and just walked around the house. Ate Rems is still on day off, so we ordered for 30pcs of barbeque that we will be picking up by 1130am. And so we left to pick up the bbq, and then went home to eat lunch. After lunch, I washed the dishes and have to watched the water being boiled. After that, surfed the net for 45 minutes and my sister and I left by 2pm.

She allowed me to drive to her friend’s house to pick up paper and plastic products and brought it over to a recycling center at Banawe. Well, she said that I am not a good driver yet, and that I shouldn’t be driving at all. Anyway, she let me drive the car, telling me what I should do, so that I’ll learn. And from Banawe, to SM to buy CD-Rs and diskettes, to Mushroom burger branch at West to buy Mushroomburgers and to home, she drove. Well, it is a shock that I didn’t get angry at all when she was shouting at me in the car, telling me to do this and that. I guessed I was happy that at least she took the courage to let me drive, to see me drive, and teach me the correct way to drive. Up until now, I don’t feel angry at her at all; I am very happy because at least she wanted me to learn how to drive the right way, so that the car wouldn’t be “destroyed” by me and that I can be a good and responsible driver. Once home, we ate the mushroomburgers we bought; my parents and my brother went out to bring some stuff to my mom’s younger sister after my parents had arrived home after going to the grocery (my sister and I were already at SM by then when they arrived home). Right now, I am online to search for lyrics for my dad and to check my mail, since I haven’t done so for a week (and since there was this problem with Yahoo whenever I use my brother’s computer but nothing wrong to it at all when I am using my laptop, like today. :) ).

Of course, there came the usual being online, eating dinner, printing the lyrics that my dad asked me to look for over the net, and then me replying to my best friend Daph’s reply. It is pretty long, I think. :) Only she can say. :) And of course, tv and sleep. :)

Sorry for the late posting. :)

Yes Che, you look so tired in the picture. Hope you get more rest in the following days to come. :) Thanks for signing my guestbook. :)

You know what, there is this problem with signmyguestbook.com, sometimes, when i sign a guestbook, my entry would be added, soemtimes not. If the entry is not added, they would display the following message, "oops, you cannot sign... so fast..." or something like that. Weird.

Oh, today is or was my last day at work for OJT. :) I hope i do have a vacation and enjoy it, vacation or not. :)

August 15, 2003 Friday
-woke up by 542am. I think it (my inflamed/swollen left ear) is a little bearable already because I slept on my left side; I just put my hand under my side of the head where the ear is to give some room for my left ear so that it won?¦t touch the pillow a lot. But then in the morning, I had to move my head, and myself, a little downward so that the area where my left ear is wouldn?¦t be touching the pillow at all.
-arrived at work by 730am. Went on to the office. Counted my total hours for the month and for the whole duration of the practicum. I have accumulated 93 hours and 45 minutes for this month, and for the whole duration, I have 581 hours and 45 minutes worth of ITPRACT hours. :) and of course, I am typing this down. I will be finishing the last diagram for the flowchart, and then I will be compiling them together into one file. After that, I guess that?¦s it; of course, the transfer of file between my diskette to one of theirs. :)
-oh, the other day, a poem sort of came into mind, but I wasn?¦t really able to work on it because I was in the car. I was telling myself that I am to continue it once I am in the office, but then it seems that I forgot since I went on to work on the program. It was suppose to start like this:::


Like the flowers that are still in bloom
Facing the sky with the sun at high
I am happy to see you day by day
Even just in my dreams and in my thoughts
Especially in my heart where you stay.

I smile at the thought of you
Of your smile that I see so true
And I continue to smile to all the memories
Shared with you through all of these years.

And each day, I feel light at heart
To know that you are doing well by far
For there is nothing else that I will ever ask God
Except that He always take care of you,
To bless you and never to desert you.

I prayed that He reminds you of all that you can be
And I prayed He remind me of the same thing
But I also prayed that He keeps me still
To be around you whenever you need me.

And He and I talked for some more time
In a prayer that may sound so simple to everyone who hears
For I asked that He help all of us, and take care of all of us as well
And that may I be a living guardian angel for Him
Especially to the people that I truly love and care about so much.


?K well, I started with the first stanza, which was the original though I had in mind, and I just continued on. :)

-by 10am, I am officially done with the documents (flow chart, user?¦s manual, and the code document). And so, I left a zipped copy of the files as well as the file themselves on the laptop of Kuya Sannel. Did go down to meet with Jo since she needed to get the print out of 2 copies of the Attendance sheet from me.
-by 1125am, some of the office staff invited us to tag along with them. They will be eating at Detour(did I hear them right?). I didn?¦t go with them anymore; I really already brought lunch with me already. And I think they will be playing billiards; I know my parents will say, if I told them about this, that I should have gone, but then I don?¦t really want to, and I don?¦t want to spend when I don?¦t really have to, and if everybody was to be invited for us, they should have also invited Ate Ana and Ate Thess, though if they go along, nobody will be in the office, as in literally empty. And I feel much comfortable alone than with them. I don?¦t really get to talk to them except as supervisor and programmer. I mean, my groupmates also invited me to go, since they already decided to go, but I told them that I am afraid that I might spend, and that Sir Eric Tabunda might spend more money because we tag along. They said it was alright, but I still said that I won?¦t tag along, thanks, and that they tell Sir Eric and the others. Ewan ko, I feel okay naman, though a part of me feels I should have gone, but then, I can live with this. I mean, they can say na hindi ako nakikisama, but then, I guess, hindi nga ako nakikisama. But still, ewan ko. I have already decided and they have already left. And I am not really feeling well because of my left ear. So, I have to accept the consequences of my actions and decisions. :0
-ate lunch. Ayun. Now, 12:08am. Just here in the office. Let?¦s see, there is just me, Ate Ana, Ate thess, Marco, and Eric(Jandusay) here in the office. Just us. :0
-the pancit malabon we?¦ve ordered just arrived, as of 1225pm. Luckily, I was around to receive it and pay for it. Probably why they didn?¦t really urge me to go anymore. They are still with them outside. They texted me to order two, but then since it is already delivered, they didn?¦t pursue it anymore; I called Ruz?¦s number and Bic answered, she asked if I have money to pay(535 for the pancit malabon), and that they?¦ll pay me later. They didn?¦t tell me to call for another one anymore, so more or less, one is enough. Hmm?K the smell of pancit malabon?K. Yummy, but then I already ate lunch. I?¦ll eat later. :)
-well, so all in all, for the merienda for our going-away later, the total expenses for all four of us is 535+60=595. It is more or less 148.75 each. But then, it would be 133.75 for the 535 I paid for the pancit malabon, and 15 each for the 60 Farids paid for the plates and such. Well, they paid me 390, 130 each person, and with my 130, it would be 520 already, and there would be the 15 pesos missing(11.25 actually(which is their share of the payment, @ 3.75 per person), because the other 3.75 is originally my share of the payment for the pancit malabon. Well, then, there is the case of the 15 pesos to Farids, but they didn?¦t let me pay anymore. I guess, I got paid, and paid my share as well. It?¦s now 210pm. If I leave by 415pm, eight hours for the day (2 hours five minutes to go). And yes, home sweet home. And 25 days (I think and hope) for vacation. :)
-left by 415pm. arrived by 5pm. to hi-top to drop raffle tickets. once home, watched tv, ate dinner. after that, printed some things for mama. and then arcy called. and then i went online to email something for elbert. and then i had to restart my laptop since something wrong is happening again always not responding. then i went online again. Daph is online and using yahoomessenger, doing her sister's assignment (who is eight years younger than her), to help her sister out on finding the population in every region. right now, we are still online, 1255am. :)
-we stayed up until 145am. :)

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August 14, 2003 Thursday
-was woken up by Elbert by 620am. But I really woke up by 642am. Of course, he was first driven to school, and then we went on to go to PNB and then at PBCOM. I arrived at work by 930am. Right now, 1008am, am typing this down before I start and finish up with the program flowchart. I plan to finish it today, so that I can concentrate on helping Elbert on his Access project and have no cares anymore (since I have done the requirements of the company) tomorrow, except for the paperwork needed for us to submit for ITPRACT.
-well, I went on working on the flowchart. Ate lunch, and then back to flowcharting. Sir Rene arrived for the LO visit by 150pm something, and chitchatted with us for a while. He looked at our pictures (grad pics) and then asked about the thesis proposals for next term. He asked how we were doing, about what we do and such, asking about Sir Ogie as well. More or less it was just that. He left by about 2:05pm. Hope we pass ITPRACT. Of course, he reminded us about the paper work and the certification of completion of the 560 hours and such. I guess, that is the only thing that needs work on and submitting to help in the completion of the ITPRACT requirements. Okay, it?¦s now 211pm ?V time to continue the flowchart so that I will be finished by 5pm.
-groupmates left by more or less 4pm, except for Bic. By sometime near 5pm, Bic also left. My mom called then, asking if I am still at work and if we have already ordered pizza for the staff to eat for our last day. I answered I am still at work, and that we will be buying the pizza tomorrow. And then she asked me up to what time will I be staying. I told her that up to 6pm. But now, by 542pm, I am preparing to go home. Just one more flowchart diagram left, and I am done with all the things needed to be with the AutoFTP program.
-well, I arrived at North Avenue Station by 645pm, as I expected and my dad arrived to fetch me by 7pm. Once home, read magazine, then ate dinner. After dinner, watched tv. Talked with Jo by 10pm up to 1030pm. And then after that I tried to help brother out, went online. But nothing much to do so I went to sleep, and anyway, my left still swells and it hurts.

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August 13, 2003 Wednesday
-had a hard time waking up. Arrived at work by 730am since I went with Elbert to school again. I worked on the program and tried some things on my program. It still downloads the big files, but then, it doesn?¦t return the focus to my program anymore, leaving my program not responding. I told Sir Alvin that I tried his approach on the program and it still didn?¦t work; I told him that I am trying something else, and I even did it twice. It still didn?¦t work, and I told him. Well, he can?¦t figure it out himself. So he told me that I can go on ahead and make the document or the flowchart, and just to take note of that. I asked why he is asking me to make this FTP program since they already have one made by Sannel. He said that there is no problem with Sannel?¦s ftp program, but he just wanted an FTP program with user interface. I mean, Sannel?¦s FTP program can download files as big as 100 mb, but then it is running at DOS. Sir Alvin wanted one with user interface. Well, there is an user interface in my program, alright, but then there is the limitation of the program hanging up when it finishes downloading big files. :0 I told my bestfriend about this as well, and she hope that I finish fixing this program. But I just can?¦t find what else to do. I mean, my program is plain and simple. It calls a function of Windows. It is just one line, and what more can I get out of it unless I look into ?§that?¨ closer which would be tampering the Windows files. Oh well?K. Going to start on the document.
-1146am. Bics and Farids arrived by 1020am and then they went up to see the bazaar somewhere at the upper floors. Ruz arrived by 11am and followed. I am still working on the flowchart.
-well, I worked on the flowcharting. Ate lunch and then continued on with the flowcharting. Up until 2pm I guess. And then they used the computer. And then by 3pm something, I asked kuya sannel to help me out with the AutoFTP program, to see what was wrong. When I discussed to him how my program finishes the 8mb downloading and goes back to my program, and then on how my program finishes a 20mb file downloading but does not go back to my program, he said that it is windows that has the problem. Well, we tried running my program in his computer. We downloaded the 8mb file from Drew?¦s ftp server. It was longer, but it worked. And then I told him again about downloading a 20mb file being completed but not going back to my program. He then started an FTP server in his own computer, and making one of his directories/folders act like an FTP server. We connected to that, and then downloaded a 39mb file (mind that, that is 39mb, 19mbs bigger/larger than the file that I am downloading from Drew?¦s ftp server. Since it was just getting and rerouting the file from his computer folder(acting as a ftp server), therefore downloading to another folder in his computer, the download was much faster, and the downloading was finished and control did go back to my program. He said that my program works and that windows has the problem. I cannot believe what I saw, that my program worked, since when the 39mb file finished downloading, it showed/popped the window with the 3 buttons back. Kuya Sannel said that the problem is not with my program but with Windows, and how it handles delays; he said that when the delay is too long, windows forgot or didn?¦t or wasn?¦t able to give back the control or focus to my program. Anyway, happy as I am, knowing that at least it is not my program that has the bug but rather windows, I told Sir Alvin, and he was sort of smiling; well, he wanted to hear why my program hangs, and has been asking to make sure to find the reason why it hangs like so, and now that I asked for Kuya Sannel?¦s help and found the answer and told him so, he was sort of smiling, and I told him that I will continue on with the program flowchart, as I already did start making this morning, since I really didn?¦t know why the program hangs and he told me to start or continue on the documentation and make the flowchart. Well, during the morning, I really felt uneasy doing the flowchart not knowing why my program isn?¦t working, but now that I knew why it was hanging, I was much more happier and relaxed and can get on doing that. When I told him about the problem with windows, he just smiled and then told me to continue on with the documentation. :) He was also saying something about me thanking him later for his making me do this FTP program. I don?¦t know why, but I hope it would be of help to me in the future. :)
-I went home by 4pm, and mama, papa,and Gennet went to fetch me at the North Avenue Station. Once home, I went to get medicine for my left ear from my dad. After that, we ate dinner. After dinner, we updated my laptop?¦s virus definitions and then downloaded the windows xp patch update from Microsoft. After that, I tried helping my brother with his Access project. But then I got tired, due to the pain in my ear causing me headaches; I wasn?¦t even able to do what I wanted to do ?V finish the documentation of the AutoFTP program. Anyway, we just watched Pocahontas II. After that, we went to sleep.

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August 12, 2003 Tuesday

-woke up by 645am. Didn?¦t get to sleep much because of my inflamed left. I like sleeping on my left side, but then because of the ear, I would wake up. And I feel so tired. Anyway, I just did my best to wake up. My brother and I left by about 715am. I slept in the car all the way from home up to work.
-arrived at work by 845am. The computer was still acting up weird: the desktop items were not displaying. And then I tried some other approaches, and it still wasn?¦t displaying. And then I remembered about msconfig that Drew had showed me to use once; this msconfig thing is called from Run and will show you a window of what programs are called during start up. Anyway, I did try to run it by typing in msconfig; it didn?¦t work. I tried just the word ?§config?¨, and then all of a sudden, all the desktop items were displayed! :0 I guess when the computer was loading, it wasn?¦t able to call the config.ini file, so it wasn?¦t able to display and load all the needed files. :0 But at least now I can see the desktop, therefore it wouldn?¦t be hard to have to call it from Task Manager or to use internet explorer to get about and looking for such. Now, I can click on My Computer again and such. :)
-I think Bic, Farids and Ruz wouldn?¦t be coming today, based from what I heard they were saying yesterday on visiting Sir Ogie. Oh well?K I know I should have visited Sir Ogie as well, but then?K I don?¦t know. I just asked Bic yesterday to tell him to get well na lang. :0
-well, I did try downloading the 20mb file. Well, the download was successful, but then my program hang; not responding, really.
-from morning, til now, 357pm, I have been trying to figure out why my AutoFTP program hangs. I have tried downloading files ranging from 841KB, to 2MB, to 3.3MB , to 8MB, and it returns to the previous window, as stated in the program. But when I do download files greater than 10MB in size, well, the downloading will finish but then the program would just ?§hang?¨ and the only way to stop it is through the task manager despite the fact that the downloading is successful. Grrr?K.
-having a hard time thinking, and trying to find out why it happens. Oh well?K.
-426pm. Emailed my bestfriend. Testing the program again?K my dad to pick me up from work today. :) but I still need to work on the flowchart, which is why a part of me is tense, aside from being tense from working on the program to which I don?¦t know it hangs up when it downloads 20mb file.
-my dad picked me up at work by 515pm. Well, of course, I discussed about my program having a limit of downloading 20mb files. I mean, it can download bigger files, but then, when the download is completed, it doesn?¦t go back to my program; my program just hangs. Of course, I told my mom and my sister as well, and they told me that although it is ?§finished?¨, because of the limitation of it hanging due to downloading larger files, it is still not ?§finished?¨. Arggghhh?K. And I know that they are somewhat right, though I do feel that I have done what Sir Alvin asked me to do, but that my program has a limitation. Grrr?K. Of course, that night, while thinking of what else to do with my program, was watching tv with my sis. Slept by 11pm.

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August 11, 2003 Monday
-went to work early, took a ride with Elbert. Stopped by PBCOM to see aunt mary Jane on the samples that my dad asked me to bring to her. Arrived at their office by 740am. She arrived by 9am. We talked up until 930am. :)
-at work right now, 1020am. The icons doesn?¦t show up at all even if the computer is restarted several times. I am able to type this down because I initiated the programs through the Task Manager utility of Windows 2000.
-met with Jo by 12 nn at FoodPark. I accompanied her while she ate lunch. Talked with her for a while and handed her the print outs of the forms needed for the Practicum. I wasn?¦t feeling well then, and since this morning. She asked if I was sick, but I said I dunno because from the outside, I don?¦t seem to have the flu, but then I have this headache and I just feel so tired, so sleepy. She went ahead to put her hand on my forehead (the back of her hand) and on my neck to see if I was having a fever; she said that I don?¦t. But still, I feel so tired, with the headache and all. She told me to get some rest while in the office. I walked her up to their building, still wearing my jacket and not feeling hot/warm outside at all. And I still didn?¦t feel it hot when I went back to the office. I still felt tired and sick. It was then I suspected my ?§inflamed?¨ left ear. So I sent a text message to my aunt, who is a doctor, if such a thing exists and she told me that she?¦ll take a look at it later. Once in the office, I took a nap for a while, from 1240pm to 130pm, I think. I just can?¦t help it since my head really hurts. After that, I can?¦t sleep anymore though I can really say that I am still sleepy. I decided to start on the flowcharting of the FTP program, but then I can?¦t continue because I need to have the vbp file open. So I am just writing this down. Bic is using the laptop, and Farids the computer. They arrived by 10am something this morning. Ruz didn?¦t come to work. It?¦s now 233pm.
-Oh, I heard from Bic , when she arrived this morning, that our supervisor , Sir Ogie, was hurt from a gunshot wound when he was held up near his home. He?¦s currently in the hospital. My groupmates, I think, will go see him tomorrow. I think they are going straight there to the hospital because they asked for all our documents that needed signatures to be given to her (bic) so that they could bring it over at once since it would take a week before Sir Ogie can be discharged from the hospital and go back to the office.
-now 335pm and Bic done with the usage of the laptop. Will use it for a while to get a start on the flowcharting. Am currently using Kuya Sannel?¦s computer.
-from 335pm t0 440pm, I worked on the flowcharts using Kuya Sannel?¦s laptop. Then Sir Alvin arrived and asked me to give a demo of the FTP program I worked on. It works well with small files ( 0 KB and such). Right now, we are testing downloading bigger files, sizes that range from 3mb above. I uploaded a 20mb file to ftp.drew.ph. After the successful uploading, I am trying to download it using my ftp program. Right now, 520pm, it is still downloading. But I think, it is still working, so far, or else, the program would have already ended; if the downloading is successful, the previous window will be displayed.
-I was wondering why it was taking so long, so I watched and looked at task manager. There, it?¦s status was Not Responding. I waited for some more time. But then I thought that something was wrong, so I ended the program. I then tried to download a smaller file using my AutoFTP.exe, a 841KB file. While downloading, it did go to a Not Responding state, and then it showed the previous window, and the download was successful because I found it in the folder that I specified it to go to. :) I guess the file was too big so it took so long, and since it was downloading the file, it went on a Not Responding state. :) I told this to Sir Alvin and he asked to try downloading the 20mb file again tomorrow so that I won?¦t get home late today. :)
-left the office by almost 6pm. When at the north Avenue station, my mom, dad and brother were able to fetch me by 730pm something. Then we went to buy some things at Hi-Top. Once home, we ate dinner. 9pm, watched Charmed. Then after that, me, my brother and sister, enjoyed some hot cocoa, cream of mushroom soup and kernel corn with butter. After that, we went to sleep. Wasn?¦t able to see my aunt, whose a doctor, but she said that I can see her tomorrow when she gets back from bowling by 9pm.

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August 10, 2003 Sunday
-woke up by about 11am plus. Slept last night by about 1230am something.
-brushed my teeth, ate lunch.
-1pm. Printed the things Jo asked me, well I offered to, print, reports for the practicum.
-230pm, took a bath.
-3pm, called Daph, but then they were not home yet. I just watched Tv.
-4pm. Called Daph again. They just got home. We talked for a while, up until 420pm I guess. She told me that her friendship with Joe, as bestfriends, has officially ended. Last night, some of her barkada, came to watch the musical in support for her. Well, Joe texted Tere to forward to Daph that Joe will be sending over the clothes that she borrowed from Daph and will be brought over Daph?¦s place tomorrow, and that Daph return her stuff as well. I just prayed to God that He help her and that He help Joe to heal soon and know that she had just let go of such a precious person. I also prayed that God help me be there to protect my bestfriend whenever I can, to be there for my bestfriend. I don?¦t know if that is right, but then, I know that I don?¦t want my bestfriend to get hurt, but then at least if she does get hurt (which I hope she doesn?¦t, always), that I be there for her. Anyway, I asked her if she has anything else to do; she said that she has some homework and stuff, but that she can do those later. :) She just talked with me for a while. :) Oh, she asked about my OJT, and she did tell me that I bring picture on the last day, but then I told her that I don?¦t need pictures to remember (but I felt bad when I said this, so after we hung up, I texted her to tell I am sorry for saying such when she is just being encouraging and supportive, and was just giving suggestions). We also talked about the grad pics, that I had already picked the ones to be printed in the yearbook, but then I told her still that I will show her that contact prints that I currently have. And I told her that we see each other real soon, and if it could be sooner, this August. :) Of course, I hope to see her on my birthday as well. But I guess better plan on the short term. I really want to see her soon, and hug her, to remind her that I am always here. I have always wanted to hug her. When I told her that we should see each other sometime soon, real soon, like for this month, this August, she didn?¦t say anything against it, though she didn?¦t say anything on it. Sort of her silence meant and felt like, ?§sure?¨, though I felt there was a tinge of sadness(probably on her and Joe?¦s friendship), but that she is open to the idea of the meeting or spending a day together as long as our schedules match, when we are both free. But at least she didn?¦t object, though she didn?¦t actually really agreed. But I guess it is alright with her, as long as I pick a day, and then if we can both see each other, then I guess it is okay with her. Ganun naman diba. :) If you want to see each other, better choose a day, so that both of you can plan your sched. :) I also told her to call if she can and if she needs to, and she said that I do so as well. But she had to hung up because the manicurist has arrived to work on her feet. :) She said that her feet is not so beautiful, so at least she has to do something to take care of it and make it beautiful. :) But I sent her a message, telling her not to say that some part of her is not beautiful, because she is one of the most beautiful persons I have known, inside and out. I told her to take care and that I hope we see each other soon.
-after talking with Daph, I called Jo. She said last night they might go out, but I tried calling anyway. She answered. I asked if she was doing anything, and she said she was watching tv. I asked if she wanted to finish what she is watching, and she said yes. So we hung up. That?¦s alright. :) she said she didn?¦t go out with her parents because she just wanted to stay home. :)
-watched tv: lizzie Maguire, totally spies and Kim Possible. And then watched more tv. I then called Drew up. We talked about Daph, about me having nothing to do for my bestfriend (guess all I can do is be there for her), and then about going back to school, and then of going out to this Art Exhibit (hope that we can go and probably have my bestfriend along. :) she is atenean?K :) ). And of course, of watching Finding Nemo, if Drew gets to plan those two events. :) and of course, we were glad to be able to talk with each other. He said that he already sent his reply, that I check my mail. I did check a while ago, but I still haven?¦t gotten it. I will just check it in the office tomorrow. :) Of course, by about I don?¦t know, by around 940pm, we had to hung up since he still got to do something. I probably called by 9pm. I can?¦t wait to finish OJT and go back to DLSU. And I hope that we be able to submit all the requirements needed to make the OJT officially finished. :) Well, it is already 1030pm. Better go to sleep and watch Charmed tomorrow by 9pm. :) But I am glad that I was able to talk with my bestfriend and then to talk to Drew as well. :) Jo didn?¦t call anymore, and I don?¦t dare call her since she is going to wake up early tomorrow. Hope she remembers to see me at enterprise center tomorrow since she would be getting the reports for the OJT that I have printed for her. :) But a part of me do wish I could have done something for my bestfriend, but then there is nothing else I can do, and she seems to have been able to go through with life, moving on and wishing the best for her exbestfriend and I guess for herself as well I guess. I hope that when Drew does plan to go to the Art Exhibit at Ateneo and the Finding Nemo movie, that we could invite Daph to come along. I just hope that we will be able to do so, and that they could drive me and Daph home. :) OH well, but until then, they are just plans that are not yet scheduled. :) But I do hope that it will be scheduled soon. :)

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August 9, 2003 Saturday
-woke up by 821am. Went to gym; was late by almost 30 minutes. Gym for one and a half hour. Got a message from Daph, asking if I wanted to watch Honk! The Ugly Duckling. I am still waiting to call her. She also said in her text message if I was able to read her emails/reply to my emails. Well, I didn?¦t check my email last night. Well, I called her when I received her text messages by 930am, which was the time I was already working out. So after gym, I went ahead to call her, but nobody is answering. And then when I was done changing and on my way to the car, I called their home phone, and I was told that she was still asleep. When I droved home, and was already home, I called her again. She was still sleeping. :) Probably tired from the all the work she did this week at school, as I have now read her emails. :) Anyway, I went ahead to check my email then, but then it was already lunch time, so I had to eat lunch after somewhat skimming through the emails she sent. After lunch, read her mail. There are a lot of things that we haven?¦t talked about and didn?¦t know about. Hmmm?K. :0 and Jo didn?¦t text me at all. Hmm.. Anyway, I am just waiting for it to be 1pm so I can call Daph, as I told her in my message just 12nn. She replied to my reply to her 930am message by 12nn. But it was a good thing going to the gym; I feel that I got to move my body. I don?¦t feel ?§strained?¨; rather, I feel somewhat light and ?§lively?¨. :)
-I called Daph by 1pm. Nobody was answering the phone in her room. So I told their household help that I will call again by 130pm. When I did call by 130pm, I was glad that at last I got to talk to her. She was sleeping since 1030pm last night up to about 12noon today. :) and I could still hear her yawn, still wanting to sleep as she said. Well, of course, I told her that I can?¦t go to see the Honk! Musical. Nobody is going to drive me. I don?¦t want to ask papa because he is tired lately, and just last last week, he was having a headache, and I thought that he was having high blood pressure, but her blood pressure was normal for their age. And then, Achi doesn?¦t really want to drive me to Meralco; I told Daph I don?¦t want to ask achi to drive me there when she doesn?¦t really feel like driving me there. Therefore I declined Daph?¦s offer. Although I really like to go, because another thing would be I could get to see her and hug her. :) I told her if I am good at driving already, I would go alone, but then, it is not that way yet. And she has to go to school by 2pm for a meeting, and so I told her that I will talk with her up until at least 145pm, asking her if she can finish preparing herself for the meeting and leaving the house, and she said syempre, sya pa. We talked about what she wrote in the email, especially about her and Joe.
I told Daph pala that I will call her tomorrow, Sunday. She said that she called this morning(mga 9am, she woke up and called and texted me but then went back to sleep), but they said that I was out (kasi nasa gym ako diba). And then I told her na yun nga, pumunta ako gym, and I feel lighter and lively. ƒ? sabi niya it is a good investment naman daw, when I said that mag-pt ako. And that I would be paying another 5500 para sa next 10 sessions with ate Irene, for PT, kasi sabi ko kapag bigyan ako ng program, parang pwede kong dayain. And she said something na tama, na may discipline and something like that. Mas gusto ko kasi at least nandun si ate Irene, para ganahan ako pumunta. At least kapag andyan si ate Irene, gagawin ko talaga. ƒ? sabi ni daph na okay daw na investment ang pag-gym ko. ƒ? I told her na gusto sana sya isama but then hindi siya member. And she asked kung san ako gym, and I told her sa slimmers. Ayun. She is going tonight. Sayang di ako makapunta. Ano kaya, next time, kung free ako tsaka siya, nood kami movies. Sabi ni mama, mas worth it pa daw manuod ng movie for 130 per ticket compared to itong 650 pesos. But then kung sabi naman ni Daph maganda, maganda naman talaga. Kagaya nung libro na ni-recommend niya. Tsaka pupunta si Daph! :0 but then wala na akong magagawa, nagsabi na ako hindi ako makapunta dahil wala hatid sa akin at wala kaming magagawa kaya okay lang. Okay lang naman daw, but I really hoped that I had supported her. But I did tell her that I will call her tomorrow, and I really will. But I will always be there for her, when she really needs me and my presence. Thank God for letting me have a friend in Daph, my best friend. ƒ?
-went out with achi to bring native eggs and oranges for auntie haydee. Then we went to buy onion rings at Don Henrico?¦s, Libis branch, and then bought Halo-halo from CoolKing at SM North Edsa. :)
-didn?¦t eat anymore. Just watched tv. Jo still out; not yet home. Daph, I know is at the Meralco center, watching Honk! Musical. Well, pretty tired just watching tv, so will just reply to Daph?¦s email. ƒ?
-911pm. Jo called. And we talked up until 1020pm. ƒ? ayaw ko pa nga baba phone, but then antok na daw siya, kaya sige na nga. Pero I don?¦t answer yes, instead I say something gibberish. Ayaw daw niya baba phone, but then when I told her that I am already in my dad?¦s room, para isoli yung wireless, binaba na naming. Hehe ƒ? kung anu-ano ang pinag-uusapan. Can?¦t wait to talk to Daph tomorrow. Try lang daw ni Jo tawag tomorrow. :)

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August 8, 2003 Friday
-was woken up by Elbert by around 515am. I did say that I will help him with the flowcharting, so I took the paper of the process that he was waving before me and slept some more. I did woke up by around 527am. While in the bathroom, I worked on the flowchart, and after which I went to take a bath. We left home by 630am. I arrived in the office by 8am. I think it is much better for me, in my opinion, to go with Elbert during the mornings on his way to school. I mean, I wouldn?¦t be late for work, and I can get to sleep peacefully while in the car and not miss my stop because I can?¦t really sleep in the mrt with all the people and having to be awake to know you are at your stop or else you go past that point. :) I can survive going home alone after work; it is better to go home by mrt because it would be much faster compared to going home by car, although you have to squeeze yourself in the mrt ?§cart?¨ with all those other people, especially on Fridays. But then it would be faster, and be at the north avenue station from the ayala station in just 30 minutes, compared to going by car through edsa and arriving at SM north edsa area an hour later. :)
-was asked to do the filing again later. Sir Alvin is early today too and he was also surprised that I am early today but then I told him that it is much easier for me to wake up early and be driven to work so that I can still sleep while in the car. And anyway, it is just the last 6 days of work. :) sir Alvin just told me to relax for a while since it is still early. :) but I will try working on the additions I made to the FTP program so that I can start on the documentation, it is most final form, as of for this version. :)
-920am something. Was asked to do the filing with Ate Girlie after I was done filling up the reports we have to submit as well the evaluation forms to be given to our supervisor. We were done with the filing by 940am.
-going back to working on the FTP program. Groupmates not here yet.
-1030am. Groupmates arrived by this time. They were late due to the rain. Anyway, kept on working on FTP program and was able to solve the thing on directories, that if directories is existing, it wouldn?¦t make another one. :) It worked. I was done with it by 12nn. :) Ate lunch with them. After lunch, I made the project AutoFTP.vbp into an EXE file AutoFTP.exe. and it works when it is run at another computer, as long as you put it under C:\AutoFTP and then create the C:\AutoFTP\files_used folder and then that?¦s it. It would work okay still under present circumstances. :) I tried on the computer we are using, and it works. I tried on Kuya Sannel?¦s computer and it works. :) Great! :)
-1247pm. Just typing this journal entry. :) didn?¦t eat lunch with Liz and the others due to the rain outside. Anyway. :) At least I am done with the FTP program. I will just have to work on the manuals (user manual and flowchart) and then at that?¦s it. :) I have already checked with my list of things to do or change in this FTP program and that?¦s all; just the flowchart and user?¦s manual left. :)
-115pm. Just finished checking email accounts. More or less will end up sleepy again. Will try to work on the user manual.
-345pm. I finished the user?¦s manual and program set-up guide by this time. I also found out that there is a slight ?§missing?¨ characters, an underscore ( _ ) at some part of the program. Luckily at that time I was looking for the filename formats of the six text files created by the program, and suddenly some of the code missing the underscore. :0 I quickly made the changes and made a new .exe file. Whew! :0 Yup, I checked it again, just run my eyes through, and found no more errors or anything missing, I think and I hope so. Just the flowchart left to do. :)
-went down by 415pm. But achi arrived by 445pm since there was a traffic jam near Petron, at Gil Puyat. She bought me cupcakes from figaro anyway, so I ate and ate on the way home. Once home, watched tv, then ate dinner. And then I watched tv again, about a movie of a teenage girl who goes out of the closet to tell the world that she is a lesbian. After that, by around 845pm, I called my bestfriend, but then she was still talking with her mom, so I called Jo. I was also calling Drew, but nobody was answering the phone. Well, jo and I talked for a while. She was also going to call me but then since I already called, she is going to entertain my call. She talked about how she felt somewhat bad today. And then after that, we had to hung up because her mom is going to receive a long-distance call. And so after that, I watched tv for a while. Anyway, when I decided to brush my teeth, and am on my way out from the last room to our room, I heard Achi asking Elbert where the cordless phone was and then I heard the phone ringing, so I answered the phone, and it was Jo. And so we talked for some while again, about my crush, and about me being sentimental, and then about our going to Canada, and then about me somewhat being ?§irritated?¨ afraid of the thought that since I made it a point to be in the same class as she is, that what if her phycom classes would be on TH(most of our classes are on TH, and so if her phycom comes in a TH, she has to move/adjust her sched). I told her why I felt that way, but that it is not her fault, since it is not my right to assume and presume that I did her a favor when in fact it is my decision. Anyway, after that, we talked some more. Although she already told me that her mom needed to go to sleep (she was in her parent?¦s room and was sitting on her mom?¦s bed), we talked for some more until I reminded her that she needed to hang up so that her mom can sleep. Although a part of me didn?¦t want to hang up, we did, but before we said our goodbyes, she told me that she will text me when she is and she is not at home. :) Jo also told me that she might she me on Monday, but then she will tell me if her plans of seeing me on Monday will push through by tomorrow, august 9, 2003. When I called during 845pm, since she was also thinking of calling, but since I called, she sort of joked on why I called, and then she said, ?§miss mo ako noh??¨ And I said, ?§ganun? Sige na nga.?¨ :) And we laughed. :) Well, the truth is, I did kinda miss her, but of course I wouldn?¦t die if I didn?¦t call or didn?¦t get to talk to her, as I wouldn?¦t die if Daph and I didn?¦t get to talk much on the phone or on emails, or even if I don?¦t get to see her much; I mean, Daph and I are still friends, I think good friends, despite time and distance, and we really do do our best to keep in touch with each other despite each other?¦s schedule and each other?¦s life. We survived through it. :) Although a part of me really yearns to talk to her more often, but then we just have to understand that she is busy and tired from school, and that I am much more relaxed because of OJT. But if we are both going to school again, then we both would be busy with our own lives din, but then we do try to call each other still even in that situation, and keep up about each other?¦s life. Even if we are both tired or needed to do something for school, we do sometimes for a while longer, an hour or two longer, because we did enjoy talking with each other again after a long time; even if we are tired, we do talk. :) and I admit feeling refreshed after that. :) I hope that it is the same way to her as well. :) I also told her(Jo) that I will be going to the gym by 9am tomorrow morning. After that, we hung up. It was almost 1015pm then. After that, I thought long and hard if I should call Daph, I did try to call DAph by 1030pm. I did call and ask if she was still awake, but then their maid coursed my call through to her phone in her room, when she answered, I detected right away from her voice that she was already sleeping. I asked if she was sleeping; she answered ?§sort of.?¨ I then told her that what if she just sleep na lang. I then said sorry for disturbing, that she sleep na lang. She said okay, and that we talk sometime on Sunday if we can. And with that, we hung up. :) I knew I shouldn?¦t have called, but then I just tried. :) And she did answer and did entertain my call, but of course, she is tired for all the schoolwork she did, as she told me in her email that they had a major report today, and remembered that when I called yesterday that she had friends over at their place, probably working on to prepare for their report. I then decided to go brush and floss my teeth. (I haven?¦t been flossing for the whole week because I have been mentally tired for the whole week, and would end up dozing off at once when my head hits the pillow.) And right now, 1110pm, I am typing this entry down. :)

Oh, I just remembered, I was walking home, alone, along SM Makati and I saw this kid reaching out to his mom or sister, to hold his mom?¦s/sister?¦s hand. To think of it, as kids we long to hold out to people, and touch them. We were not afraid to give and share our love. We were much verbal, and we were not afraid to tell the people that we love that we love them. But then, as we grew, and we found out/discover about the risk of rejection, and being rejected ourselves, that we know pull ourselves back, and we just keep quiet inside, afraid of telling the people that we love that we really and deeply care for them because we are afraid that they might move away. WE are afraid to hold each other?¦s hand and touch each other?¦s lives. I smiled and sort of felt guilty when this came into mind. Because I myself have found it hard to tell people, especially the people that I love the most and would really want them to know that I love them but then afraid that they might just push me away. Although I have told people that I truly care about, like my bestfriend that I love her very much, and I really do care a lot for her, a part of me wished that I could say that to my parents and not be afraid to hug them. but then a part of me is still afraid ever since they ?§pushed?¨ me away when I hugged my mom when I was still young; she told me, ?§what?¦s the use of your hugging me if you are always making mistakes??¨. I mean, as a child, I really wanted to just hug them and I wasn?¦t expecting anything else from them except to see them smiled, but when she lashed out at me like that, since then, I have been afraid to hug her and get close to her, and even to my dad, because I am afraid that she?¦ll reject me again. I told myself, in a way, that it is better this way than to get hurt again. In a way, it was easier to tell the friends that I do care a lot about that I love them, and that I do care deeply about them. Funny, how I can say it to my good friends, and not to my family.

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August 7, 2003 Thursday
-arrived at the office by 845am. My sister will be going for a teaching demo at LaSalle today by 1pm, for an accounting class. :) Hope she gets accepted. :)
-started the day doing Sir Alvin?¦s documentation again, well at least this time it is just binding and segregating them according to their chapters. :) and then I just surfed the net and then typing this journal down before I start programming/adding something else to my FTP program. :)
-Kat said that they will be going to change their itelec3 from netdema to elemfre (of another college). But I told her to read the email of my correspondence with ms. Divine before anything else, so that we could be sure. They will be doing the enrollment changes for me. I would rather they see my schedule na rin kasi eh.
-groupmates didn?¦t come to work yesterday. I just don?¦t know about today.
-Well, they arrived by almost 1030am. But at least both Farids and Bic arrived. Ruz didn?¦t come in today.
-I ended up adding elemfre as our electives and taking away the other electives, netdema for liz, kat, nats and Dianne, and advnweb from me and jo, and adding in elemfre for all six of us and changing liz, kat, nats, and dianne?¦s intphil from s16 to EB(an engineering block) since it is in conflict with the elemfre a51 section. At least, we are all in the same elemfre section even if for just that. :)
-I printed a copy of our(all six of us) class schedule for next term, as well as the emails correspondence between me and Ms. Divine, so that I can show them, sort of for me a confirmation because I know I made the changes, but then I just want somebody to confirm it for me. :)
-ate lunch with Farids and Bic. After that, I did nothing, and just tried to keep busy. From 256 to 310pm, I was asleep. I really had a headache. Anyway, after that, I just used Kuya Sannel?¦s computer so that I can type this and check my mail. Farids was working on the TTR system manual, so I just let them be.
-they left by 408pm.
-I am still thinking on how I will be putting the Mkdir thing to my program. I have this idea in my head, but just don?¦t want to work on it much. (lazy me. :)). Just waiting for it to be 5pm. :) it is just 52minutes away.
-457pm. Just finished surfing the web again. Did try to look for sources on the checking directory thing so that I won?¦t need to devise a way to check if the directory is already present. But oh, well, I didn?¦t find anything on it. Though I also searched for the song ?§You?¨ by Jim Brickman featuring Jane Krakowski. :) It is just 3 minutes away from 5pm.
-went down by 505pm. Liz and the others got down from the office by 525pm. Ghe Tan had already arrived before that. Well, Kat and Ghe went on their own way. Liz, Dianne and I rode in Nats car. And then Liz and I took MRT home. Once home, ate dinner after watching some tv. Then helped Elbert in his ERD diagram. Then went online for a while, networking my laptop and Elbert?¦s computer. Then found out a weird thing when I checked my mail: my bestfriend?¦s reply to my email was in the Trash Folder of my yahoo account, already replied to! :0 I didn?¦t even reply to it, and I don?¦t definitely delete messages from her, and that is why it is very weird! :0 anyway, I called her place, but then she had friends over because, as she had mentioned in her email, they have a major report tomorrow. So after that, I just replied to her reply, and I guess my email is a long one. :) after that, I went to sleep, telling my brother that I will help him out with the flowchart thing, for their program, in the morning, as long as he wakes me up.

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August 6, 2003 Wednesday
-woke up 540am. Left with Elbert 630am. Forgot lunch box. Arrived at office 745am. Worked on ftp (making directories if program first used. To set the directories already.) left again by 930am, with liz, kat, nats, Dianne, to dlsu to see gradpics. Arrived at dlsu by 1030am. Chose pics. Accompanied lizette to registrar and accounting. Went to gokongwei. Saw cha espinar, romero, and harry at sps (gradpic). Went to gokongwei. Left by almost 11am something. Arrived back at makati by almost 12nn. Will go home with liz this afternoon. They invited me to their going away party from prudential on Friday or something. Bought lunch from olivers and ate it at pantry.
-cannot continue working on program because asked by sir Alvin to make necessary changes to document he asked me to do for web billing. Groupmates haven?¦t arrived yet at all. I think they are also going to choose the grad pic to be printed today.
-was done with the editing of the manual/document by 5pm. But then the printing was so slow that I stayed later than I expected. I told Liz that she can go home first if she needs to, and she does, so she went ahead. Right now, 712pm, I am still here. From 5to712pm, I ended up working on the FTP program that I wasn?¦t able to ?§finish?¨ or ?§clean up?¨ because I left for dlsu and because I was asked to do the editing.
-left by 730pm. Went home alone in the night. Arrived at north avenue station by almost 830pm. Papa and ma fetched me; we stopped by mcdo first then home. After that, they went to Paz because a family friend?¦s mother died. Stayed home, at dinner(would you believe, I ate two cups of rice?), watched Alias at Studio23 and was asleep by 1030pm.

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August 5, 2003 Tuesday
-arrived by 9am. Worked on the editing of the manuals that sir Alvin asked me to do yesterday. I stopped for a while when Sir Molano arrived for the LO visit this morning. He talked with us and Sir Ogie. After a short while, he left. I went back to working on the manuals. Stopped for a while for lunch. After that, back to editing, up until 445pm, by which I am now taking time to type down this journal. Groupmates left by 230-3pm. Liz and I won?¦t be riding home together since Dianne?¦s dad will be treating them dinner.
-it has been a pretty tiring day, but at least not a moment is wasted since I am able to accomplish what I am asked to do. :) That?¦s the most important thing. I plan to start/continue the documentation for the FTP program tomorrow; I don?¦t want to add the ?§create directory?¨ part anymore, because whenever I add something, it usually takes me another week to figure out the error. :) And at least, I can finish the documentation before we leave, which the also another important part aside from the FTP program.
-will leave by 5pm or so after checking my mail.
-went home. Once home, ah, I ate dinner, and then watched Smallville by 9pm while trying to make an ERD diagram for my brother?¦s project. Sleep.

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August 4, 2003 Monday
-arrived at work by 920am. Worked on the FTP program. Last Friday?¦s error is already fixed. :) they arrived by 10am and so. I just kept on working on the program, and then Sir Alvin asked me to edit the grammar of the manuals made by employees in PLDT HK. I worked on those even up until now, 306pm.
-groupmates left by about 245pm since they don?¦t have much to do and I am doing much of the work given by Sir Alvin.
-we don?¦t know if Sir Rene Molano will come to the office for a LO visit tomorrow. Hope that he does. We only have two weeks to go, and the LO needs to visit at least twice before we reach our 560 hours.
-didn?¦t go to school with Jo today to see contact prints. Nat, Liz, Dianne, and Kat are going there on Wednesday and Jo told me that I go with them on Wednesday instead of going with her today since they would be rushing to do things when they get to La Salle since they need to submit some things.
-411pm. Spent the rest of the afternoon continuing with the editing of the user manual grammar after spending some time checking my email accounts. Will leave by 5pm to meet with Liz at the walkway.
-Liz arrived by 530pm. We arrived at the North Avenue station by almost 630pm. Achi and Papa fetched me and we went to stop by at SM North Edsa to buy Halo-halo from CoolKing but then when I got there, there were no more banana, and the other ingredients that we want, so I just went to buy cassava crackers for my sis which we ate on the way home. We stopped over my sister?¦s bestfriend?¦s house to pick her up since my sister decided that she wanted to colour her hair and has asked this friend to do it for her. Once home, ate dinner, scanned the Villman receipt for Carlo, watched tv (Charmed), and then went to sleep.

August 3, 2003 Sunday
-woke up by 10pm. Watched tv. Body still feels tired, not in condition. And then helped out in the mornings burning of incense. (Buddhist tradition). Ate lunch afterwards. Then watched tv…. Up until 3pm something.
-made note to work on the ftp program I am working on since there are still some unwanted “bugs” and to update my journal entries as well and also to fix my things and to take good care of my newly bought hub/switch. I was starting to feel drowsy, probably because I ate pizza and drank hot cocoa while watching tv. :)
-called Jo. Only talked for a while. Did talk about tomorrow’s plan of going to school to check out and decide on which contact prints should be printed and be put into the yearbook. And then of course she told me that she is thinking of dropping advnweb and taking something else. I told her to tell me/inform me on both counts. Then we hung up because she needed to work on their system and I had to call Daph.
-called Daph. Well, she just got home. :) she was surprised, well not really surprised, that I called. :) anyway, I was feeling drowsy then, and while I was talking to her, she kinda noticed my drowsiness (though I didn’t tell her that I was feeling drowsy) and asked me if I was feeling okay. :) I told her that I was feeling fine except that I am sleepy but then that I must not sleep. She asked why I musn’t sleep; I told her that if I sleep now, I wouldn’t be able to sleep later tonight. :) and she got what I meant and agreed to what I said. :) it is funny on how I tried not to sound drowsy and tired, but still, she noticed that I am drowsy and such. Guess, we can “feel” or “sense” each other, even on the phone, by just each other’s voice. :) when I heard her voice on the phone, I knew she was busy and then she told me that she just got home, needed to do a lot of other things and that she is emailing something for her sister but then something is wrong with her new yahoo account. Anyway, we talked a while, with her discussing with me about this email problem, and then me asking if her computer’s time is correct to which she answered yes. And then I talked about buying the hub/switch, and she didn’t know what it was, I explained what it can do and then she understood. It feels great to know that somebody can still understand what you are trying to explain as simple as possible. But then come to think of it, Daph and I have known each other for so long, and we are comfortable with each other and therefore on both reasons, are why we can easily understand each other. :) well, anyway, after that, she did mention about can’t wait to see each other again, that she hopes we could meet up on their semestral break. I then asked when their sembreak was and she told me that it would be sometime on October. :) I then mentioned on how I hope that we could see each other on my birthday, asking her as well if she it is sembreak at ATeneo on my birthday. :) Anyway, more or less she had to get on doing the email thing for her sister Beng, to email it to be printed, but first checking it out on her brother’s computer(she did explain on how she has to email that, and on how beng’s groupmate didn’t want to do the printing at all[oh, their printer at home was not working so they had to ask beng’s groupmate to print it], but then did agree to do so. :)). She also said that it was a hassle having her yahoo account to go “berserk” and having to change accounts since she has to keep her yahoogroups groups updated on her new email account and then joining those yahoogroups all over again. But then she really had to go, but told me that I email her still those email that I did send a few days ago, and knew that they were there, but then never did get to see them. she told me to email it/them to her bluebottle.com address. :) I told her that this time, I saved it to my sent folders. :) she asked if I had the reasons on why I switched to a different thesis group and I said yes, because I think that I do have written the reasons on the saved emails. :) she said that she will check her mail again later and that she will read them, and email when she can. :) but I really had to let her go and get on with what she needs to do, so we said our goodbyes and she gave me a “kiss” or a “mwuh!” goodbye.:) after that, we hung up. :) and I really feel happy being able to talk to her. :) and I hope that she does feel the same way too. :)
-I went to get my laptop from elbert’s room and then went online to check my mail and also update this journal entry for the week. :) it is 541pm now. :)
-i do feel somewhat tense because i want to make sure that i finish the ftp program, but then i wouldn't really want to do it at home because i would always choose to do it in the office. so i don't push myself to do it at home but that i make it a point to work at it when in the office. oh well...

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August 2, 2003 Saturday
-woke up by 9am. well, i guess i was just lounging around at home and was listening to mp3s with my sis. and then i played my playlist with the home audiovisual system where the speakers not being used anymore for my own use. :) connected it through a jack or what ever you call it with the same ends(sort of the end of hte earphone that you plug in to computers ). it worked.
-i helped out in cleaning the hamster food dishes and one of the hamsters cage.
-ate lunch and listened to mp3. went to take a bath. called carlo to verify if we will still push through in buying the hub/switch. he said yes and that i call if i am 20 minutes away from sm carpark.
-drove to orthodontist's at e.rodriguez. was really in condition, but i still made it. :) my appointment was 4pm, but the orthodontist was only able to work on my braces by 445pm. But I did get to sm carpark by around 530pm. Carlo arrived by almost 6pm.
-well, he did the scouting for the hub/switch. We found one, that he especially likes and found from the villman.com site, and guess where we bought my hub/switch: villman branch at sm carpark. :) but there was only one left, so I bought it and a lan cable as well. He will be buying his from the Villman’s West Avenue branch tomorrow. :)
-we arrived at our place by 730pm. We ate dinner first, then worked on setting up the hub/switch and doing the mapping drive thing and such. :) we also shared the internet connection and such, and we did try to make a back up of my files, but then something is wrong, so I would end up manually moving my files from my laptop to my brother’s computer. Well, I guess that is better that nothing at all. :) he left our place by around 9pm.
-just watched tv and waited until my sister came home before 12mn, by which time I also decided to go to sleep. :)
-oh, and did I mention, the rubber band on my braces are “glow in the dark”. It is kinda scary when I do look at the mirror in the dark. :) but of course, it isn’t too obvious because it doesn’t glow that much to be noticeable unless you flash the flashlight before it for a while and then show your braces in the dark. :) (just imagine the teeth and the skull). :)


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August 1, 2003 Friday
-woke up by 6am and left home by 630am with elbert. sir rene was coming over for a LO visit.
-arrived at worked by 8am. worked on ftp project while using messenger to talk with aunt loudette. after that, found out that the memorandum of agreement was not yet done and so sir rene can't meet with us after talking with me and sir ogie. he'll probably come next tuesday.
-from 10am up until afternoon, we were worrying about the enrollment. when it was nearing 10am, i decided to borrow a computer,a nd sir alvin helped me out by askng for kuya sannel's password. and so i got to use the comp. Ruz used the computer we are using, marivic borrowed jovani's laptop, and i shared kuya sannel's computer with Farids. anyway, bic and ruz were already done with the enrollment. I, on the other hand, with farids, had to wait. but i was able to complete my enrollment, most of my subjects at S14(same block as joanne Yao), and then itresm at s11 and orient at s14. Farids had to wait longer before she got to finish hers. more or less by 2pm somthing, before 3pm, we were officially done with the enrollment. whew. in the past, the enrollment would take just 5 minutes or less; now, it took as more or less 5 hours. and the enrollment during the morning scared me a lot because i thought all the sections are closed, luckily i was calling up dianne cabrera, Jo and Kat to ask and also know what their section is. whew... and they told me to try again when they found out that things are working better online.
-while enrolling, i was eating my packed lunch. lucky i decided to bring food along with me this friday. i got to brush my teeth by 245pm, when i remembered, after enrolling and suffering this headache ever since the enrollment started. whew....
-can't do much anymore right now. more or less, i will just continue with the programming next week. the enrollment is really tiring.
-groupmates left by 3pm something. they asked me if was not leaving yet, told them yes because i have to wait for Lizette.
-351pm. more or less,i got an updated zip copy of the program i am working on. and then i just checked my email accounts. i am just waiting for it to be 5pm. can't really do much anymore right now. just want to sleep and look forward for the weekend. want to relax after the grueling enrollment. will probably just delete unwanted emails and update journal entry until 5pm.
-440pm. well, i have just taken the time to delete messages from my yahoomail account. am pretty sleepy. but then there is only 20 minutes left before 5. :) it's really cold here. didn't expect that i was going to tremble because of the airconditioning system. brrrr......
-to think of it, we (as individuals trying to enroll subjects) were helping each other and more or less got together more harmoniously. i mean, i would even joke around and such. well, i don't know, but i am already with another group, so no use thinking about it anymore, but at least we got along today. :)
-5pm. left the office then. waited for liz at the walkway. more or less,they got up from the walkway by 515pm. walked and got to the station. once there, we found that there are a lot of people and we waited for at least three trains to come by before we did get to board one. once at the north avenue station, achi picked me up from there and we went to see Marshall at their home in LIbis(he had just gotten back to the Philippines from taiwan, and will be in the philippines for a few days). we ate at DOn Henrico's in LIbis, more or less vegetarian. then we stopped over at their home, and then achi and i went home. we got home by about 11pm. i still called Carlo over the phone to discuss about us buying the hub for me to use at home. well, things will go as planned. i then went to sleep since i really had a throbbing headache.


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July 31, 2003 Thursday
-slept by 12am/1am. was listening to mp3s.
-woke up by 642am. at work by 9am.
-work, work, work. made changes on the ftp program based on the thoughts that came to mind yesterday of possible errors. now that i have incorporated those changes, one part works and the other(automatic mode) starts to have errors. haven't found the cause/source; will most probably continue tomorrow. (ruz, Farids, and Bic) using computer.
-i've told them yesterday about moving/changing groups, to malcolm's group. today, it is more or less the same as the way they treat me and act everyday. civil naman. when i asked if it was okay that i moved to malcolm's group, bic said that it was alright. (i didn't say this out loud since sir ogie was around, so i implied "about yesterday".) and i thanked them for it.
-would and did text Daph. she started texting telling me she's sorry she wasn't able to check her email yesterday because she had a headache and slept early last night. I said it's okay. she's checking her email at home this morning since she doesn't have class today, but will be attending a meeting at school by 1pm. she said she hasn't gotten to my email yet because of all the junkmails, and that she'll text me later. :)
-ate lunch, and now back at the table. not doing much, trying to figure out what went wrong in the program but can't do much as of now since they're using the computer. oh, i really have to work on it at home.
-Sir rene molano, would be coming for a L.O. (linkage officer) visit tomorrow morning. i already told Bic, Farids, ruz and Sir Ogie about it.
-1234pm. sleepy! :0 will take mrt ride home with Liz this afternoon.
|don't forget to get signed attendance sheet and weekly reports.|
-156pm. informed sir alvin of new errors that came up after correcting some "logical errors". i also asked Sir Ogie to sign my june and july attendance sheets as well as the 2 weekly group reports for the last two weeks of July (7-21 to 25) and (7/28 to 8/1). 3 hours and 19 minutes left.
-224pm. 2 hours and 51 minutes. Sir ogie is preparing himself as well for sir Rene's LO visit tomoorw. He knows that he's not around the office much the other month, but then he does his best to know and familiarize himself with what we are doing here, even if it is on the last minute so that he could say things right, based on the reports we have written and submitted so that we could pass our practicum. :)
-since they're using the computer, all i can do right now is to try to run the program in my mind, to trace and find where the possible cause/s of errors might be. and that's all i can do until i can get to try it out on the computer. and i guess this is what i will end up doing for the remainder of the day. it's hard to use another staff's computer here because most of them don't have vb6 installed, and if it's installed, the computer is locked for use by that personnel only.
-240pm. it seems tat every month, the chinese employees of Unified COmmunications from Malaysia comes over to the philippines. :) :0 :| :)?
-3pm. Groupmates left! they thought sir ogie already left, but the lo and behold, he just went to the washroom and now that he's going back to the office, found them leaving work early. Anyway, will do checking now of my thoughts on the errors and the possible solutions.
-345pm. typing this entry to rest after trying out the thoughts i had on solving the errors i found earlier in the program. :) one hour and 30 minutes left.
-420pm. just finished typing the down the day's journal entry that i wrote down, as well as finishing checking my mail. will go back to working on the program up until, let's say, 5pm.
-i programmed up until 515pm.i was supposed to go down by 5pm, but i was so engrossed in programming, finding out that i am able to find a solution and make the problems i found earlier work properly again led me to forget about the time. luckily, i remembered by 515pm and went to meet with Liz and the others.
-Liz and I took mrt home. but we arrived by almost 7pmm since the mrt stopped for so long at boni avenue. mama and achi then went to fetch me after they had finished ordering food from banawe's monte villa. once home, we ate dinner. and then i talked with jo and then took my father's blood pressure. after that, i went online and icqed with carlo, then drew. and then after that, almost by 11pm something, went to sleep after my sister was done talking with me.


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July 30, 2003 Wednesday

-did get a reply from Daph, telling me that my text didn't wake her up since she was fast and sound asleep and that she'll reply to my email later today. :) (i texted her last night and said that i sent the email to her and that i hope that my msg, when the phone beeps, wouldn't wake her up. :)).
-left for work by 830am, with Papa and Kuya Gudo driving me to the office. while in the car, my dad explained the incident about me and jo going together to Canada and such. that at least i ask first, "magpaalam" dahil may "galang" or respect to them as parents, kasi my moving there would involve them as well. i did feel a little tense, but then i understood their side/stand, and i didn't say anything anymore. I am glad that i am able to control of myself, and that i am able to understand their perspective. usually, it would be hard for me to accept what they are telling me, but today, i was able to take in into heart. last night i wouldn't, but am glad that he explained it today not last night because i would really not listen much to them last night, but now that i am relaxed, i am listened to them.
-arrived at work by 945am. Marivic and Farids arrived b 1030am something. am now working on the flowchart thing. i plan to tell them now about me moving to Malcolm's group. and we hope that we could work on the time-in/out program today as well. hope things turn out fine. i can't wait to read Daph's reply. :)
-more or less, i worked on the flowchart. and then of course, i would have ideas or sudden thoughts that would make me think that something is wrong with the program or that may cause problems in the program in the future. i just took note of those. more or less, that was what i did from morning to afternoon. they were using the computer today, working on the time-in/out program for the company, and of course, making sure that the ttr can be used by the computers in the office that are networked together.
-i also told them that i am moving to another group. i wasn't able to them face to face so i just wrote it down and gave it to them as a letter when i was to leave work by 5pm. in the letter, i told them that i just wrote it down because i tend to forget what i have to say, but with a letter, i can put all my thoughts down and then there wouldn't be problem of me having to find a spot for us to talk with nobody else hearing about it. I also thanked them for giving me a 2nd chance, and i also mentioned that the second chance was so that we could see if things could work out, and if things don't work out, that we can disband. I told them that i am moving to another group because i have the problem. that i think we are doing okay right now, but that there is internal conflict in me, and that i can't communciation with them: hard for me to delegate and share work to them on the program and that they have a hard time follwing my train of thought, and it is also the same the other way around. i also told them that i am already accepted by another group. and that i think it would be better to disband even before the thesis proposal, because it would be harder if we were to have problems during thesis proper. I also said that i really thank them for taking me in when i lost thesismates then(Genina, Che and Au), that i thank them very much. but that i don't want to wait for long before i tell them, so i just wrote it down. i also said that i guess we can still work harmoniously together for the remainder of the OJT, though we are somewhat "hiwalay" or separate since i work on a different project now and they are working on another as well, (though we did work on some program together). I said that i know that they (the three of them) can work together well with each other, and can get those projects done themselves. I also said that i don't want to be their "enemy" because of the thesis, or for any other reason. I also said that i hope there would be no hard feelings. I also said that i thank them for the second chance, the honesty, the pakikisama and the consideration they gave me, and that my moving would be for the better[of both]. and i ended it with a sincerely yours from me. (well, this is what i remember of the letter. i didn't make any copy anymore. i was thinking of asking Liz to read it during our MRT ride, but today she had to go home with her mom, so i took the mrt alone. i think i have to believe my instinct in that i am able to write a letter that wouldn't offend them in any way and still get my message, that i am moving to another group, across. i just can't wait anymore; i didn't tell them anything for almost a week i think.). Well, when i was at the ayala station platform, i checked my cellphone and saw i received a message from Bic, asking, "Ei grace, curious lang me, sinong group yun?". i told her, "kina malcolm", and sent another message, "sana hindi kayo galit or anything..". Bic didn't reply anymore. IN a way, i feel that a weight has been lifted, but then of course, there is the thought of what may happen tomorrow if we see each other at work. Well, i am expecting the worst, but hoping that things would still be the same. but for me, i felt better because i am not keeping anything from them anymore, not keeping my mouth shut about me moving to malcolm's group.
-i told mama and papa about it when they fetched me at the station. my mom said i should have told this to them face to face, but then i told them that i tend to forget what i say. i told her that i wrote the letter in a way that i am saying that i am the one with the problem and that is why i am the one moving out. anyway, we then went to Unimart to buy some stuff.
-once home, ate dinner and then after that put together the groceries since most of them will be for sunday's "offerings". i put things into order. after that, i checked my mail; my bestfriend hasn't replied yet. :( and then i called Malcolm up, telling him that i told Bic already, in a letter, based on what i remembered that i wrote on the letter, and then Bic's text message and my answer/s. and then he told me that we might have a problem with the problem since our other groupmates, masayuki, is currently having trouble, and if case financially masayuki can't work things out, there would only be the two of us as a group; but if masayuki's financial problem works out,then there is still three of us. of course, after that, we hung up. during the call, malcolm was sort of smiling or laughing a little at me, on how i told Bic and such....
-after that, i wanted to work on the flowchart thing changes, but i guess i will be working on it at the office. we arrived home from unimart by 8pm something, and after eating dinner and putting the groceries in order and checking main and talking to Malcolm, it is already 10pm. and now i am typing this entry down and it is already 1036pm. anyway, after talking to malcolm, i remembered to call jo but then she was already sleeping. :) oh well, and i came back to typing this journal. oh, and i also posted a paper containing my schedule for the saturdays of august. :) more or less that's it. :) got a new earphone from my dad since my other earphones is not working properly(on the left is working. :)). OH, Sir Rene, our Linkage officer, texted me informing me that he might visit us on friday and told me to call him. i called him and then he told me that more or less he will be going to visit us this friday, august 1. and he asked some things about the work place, about the job given to us, the number of people in the office, the office set-up and such. :) and after that, that's it, he is saying something about the memorandum of agreement from Hazel of which he didn't text me about nor did farids tell me about if he did inform her. he said that he will more or less visit us in the morning and more on meeting with us as a group, and asked who our supervisor is, and who is the head of the office. Anyway, that's all we talked about(i think, because that is all that i remember as of now). i hope i answered his questions right. because our project supervisor in all the reports we submit is sir Ogie, so i told him our direct supervisor is ogie abanilla. I hope that i did things and answered his questions correctly. Oh well, too late to think about it now.

oh, my dad gave me his old earphones, which he has only used twice, to me since my current earphone's left side works. but then, since he hasn't used it for long, the rubbery coating was kinda sticky, and i had to put powder on it so that it won't be sticky to use.

a poem i typed yesterday:::
i look up to the sky still.
Whether it be blue or gray
even in the black of night
in happiness and sadness felt

at each stare and each breath
i think of you as if you're here
how i pray that you be safe
everytime, everywhere, everyday.

every cloud, every star
the rays of the sun
the light of the moon
reminds me of friends afar.

and with the rustling of leaves
as the wind passes bay
and the footsteps of each person
and more of the sounds of the world.

but then my mind goes back
to thinking of you
a person i miss so
because i do really love so.

and i continue to write poems
passing idle time
and waiting for the workday to end
[and looking forward to seeing you again]
and trying my best to make this rhyme.


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July 29, 2003 Tuesday
-groupmates didn't come to work because today is their yearbook pictorial (duh...)
-really didn't want to wake up but still. arrived at work by 945am. well,when we drove my brother to school, my sister asked if we could get something from SM Manila Bay. i agreed. when we arrived there, the guard said that nobody is inside yet and that work starts 9am. it was already 844am then, so i told her that we can wait. we left that place, after my sister got to get what we needed to get there, by 9am something. and arrived at work late. :)
-just worked on the comments for the AutoFTP program, and suddenly found out that i didn't put a part of the code that would handle the transition in the year. I am still currently working on it now since i only found out about this today.
-spent lunch break with Jo, Liz, Kat, Nats, Dianne, Mitch, TJ. really didn't feel well, my mind seems too heavy.
-back at work, think, think and think of a solution for the year transition thing. and i am still thinking up to now, 240pm. did ask sir alvin if i should do a dfd, as he said, or a flowchart, since a dfd is only for those where data is processed, but not in this program. and so he agreed on me making a flowchart instead (but this would be a very "webby" flowchart). i don't want to start with the time-in&out program thing without the other "3" since we should work together and i didn't really get the idea about it discussed to them. i will be leaving the office by 530pm today; i will be meeting my parents at Makati Medical. Liz already told me yesterday that we can't take the ride home together since she has to accompany her mom to a function this night; i am lucky because i can get a ride home with my parents since my mom will be going for a check-up this night, at 6pm. i hope that i can figure out the year transition problem wiht my program. :)
-426pm. i did find a solution to that year transition thing. what i did is that i check the current year's log, if the log contains values at the first four rows, then it would most probably be the current year still, no transition, and so it will go to that branch of the else statement where it would be correctly handled; if there is no value or if it is blank, then it would mean that it is a new file, therefore the program must check the previous year's log, jsut to see if there are still any files not downloaded yet. and then do the downloading, and write it on the new current year's log. :) whew! :) but i did have a problem with the if-else-end if block and i had to print out 7 pages worth of code before i was able to find out where it was that was missing an end-if. :) okay, i will be indenting the code, to make it readable, and then i will work on the flowchart, if i still have time. :)
-452pm. i found out that there are some new people from outside the philippines again, and i think they are speaking fookien, but in a way a fookien with a different accent. :) i tried talking to one in fookien, but i guess he didn't understand me. :)
-523pm. i have finished with the indenting. I have also finished with the comments. :) more or less, i will be working on the flowchart tomorrow. I will be leaving by 525pm to meet with my parents at Makati medical. :)
-met with my parents at Makati Med by 615pm. told him about plans to go to Canada with Jo and that we would be living together. they got "angry", and told me that since i cannot distinguish things therefore i am not able to be reasonable at all. well, my mom went on with her check-up. i jsut didn't want to talk anymore because i felt bad and felt that i might just shout at them or say something bad so i just waited outside the clinic while both of my parents went in to see the doctor. after taht, we ate at floating island. we were more or less quiet. i didn't say anything anymore. on the way home, the two of them were doing most of the talking. i just kept quiet. though we would still talk if they were going to buy the donut for my brother. but i dare not bring up the topic of me going to Canada with Jo anymore. i wanted to let them know what i plan to do after college, but then i don't want being made to feel bad when i tell them about this.
-well, we went ahead to find a dunkin donuts store. the one at delta already closed down, as well as taht at Del Monte. I remembered one at Munoz and we went there. and there it was. we bought my brother 6 choco frosted donuts and 25 pcs of honey dipped munchkins. after that we went straight home. once at home, checked mail, called Malcolm(i told him that i will be in the same itresm class as he is but that i will be in the block where Joanne Yao will be for the other subjects, and he said it was just okay. and then he asked me waht coco's and the others reaction were to my changing group for thesis; i told him that i haven't told bic yet because my parents told me not to yet. but then he told me to tell them already, so that they won't be "shocked" when they hear it from me and i also said it as well, the word "shocked" when he told me to tell it to bic already. i told him that i will. checked mail and found out that i didn't save the long e-mail that i have typed for daph. anyway, i emailed her at the new email address she gave to me and told her that i will just call her up and tell her about the changing group thing, and did ask that she reply to my email if she did get my email.
-anyway, gotta go. found out that ccs enrollment is moved to aug. 1 instead of aug.2. did call jo but nobody's answering the phone.
-went to sleep by 1am, after finishing the email i typed/wrote for my bestfriend, sending it and making sure that i save it in my Sent Folders. :) did text to tell her that i already sent it to her.


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July 28, 2003 Monday

-yesterday's coup de etat ended last night.
-arrived by 915am. took a ride to Makati with papa; papa and driver drove me to work.
-they arrived by 945am, for Farids, and Bic and RUz came by 10am.
-well, i did make some changes to the AutoFTP program that i wasn't able to work on much last week since i would come in somewhat late and my groupmates had to work a lot on the revisions for the TTR program and then i was asked to do something else.
-oh well, i really can't sleep last night from fear of how the enrollment would go. well, but since the enrollment is moved to Aug 2, then oh well. :)
-more or less, was using the computer for the whole morning. making changes to the project and surfing the net, checking my email and reading up on Frank Herbert's Dune.:)
-well, last night, was watching Children of Dune at Hallmark Channel. :) Liked the story and that is why i intend to buy/get a copy of the book so that i can read up and understand the story much further. :) this is why i am adding it to the things that i am saving on to buy: harry potter and the order of the phoenix(book 5) and then Frank Herbert's Dune, Dune Messiah, Children of Dune, Heretics of Dune, and two other books on Dune. :) Frank Herbert wrote this 6 books, but then there are still other books that his son has continued writing, but i am only interested in those books written by Frank Herbert. :)
-after lunch, was pretty much not doing much. and they were still using the computer, so i jsut went over to use the laptop for a while, or as long as i can. :) typing down this entry and doing some other things that i can do. :)
-oh, i will be buying my first ever hub with Carlo this saturday. probably during the afternoon, as long as we're both done with the enrollment during the morning; and i will be having an appointment with the orthodontist that afternoon, by 4pm. well, i guess after buying i did ask Carlo if he could come over our place and help set-up the hub to test if it works, and he said "sure! :)" cool. :) At least if there is any problem when i connect my laptop and my brother's computer, then carlo would be there to help us solve it out, instead of having to call him up and having to describe what happens when i click this and that and such. :)
-1:46pm. well, just went on to play solitaire and won. :) not doing much. well, we can really go home already, if we want to but then i have to wait for Liz up to 5pm, so better wait then. :) 3 hours and 14 minutes. Just three hours away. :)
-2:11pm. 2 hours and 49 minutes. :) oh well... :) more or less i am just doing nothing. i really want to sleep.
-348pm. am boring myself to death. :) hehe :) well, not really doing much. I don't know how to plan doing the time in-time out thing. i have been online for a while, but i guess by now, the net is slowing down so i might as well do the user manual for the Autoftp that i have worked on for the past month. :)
-414pm. i have just finished the user's manual for the autoftp. well, i have the much more technical manual to work on now. Sir alvin wanted some sort of dfd, but i don't think i can do that. I would more or less make a flowchart instead.
-just wrote an email for my bestfriend. after that i went down to meet Liz at the walkway. took the mrt ride home together. was fetched from north avenue station by 630pm(i arrived by 610pm) since my dad and mom and sis had to go buy banana's for this sunday's "offerings". we then went to Hi-top for some groceries. once home, ate dinner. and then by 9pm, watched charmed. after that, watched Lizzie Maguire. after that, just listened to some mp3s. and by 1131pm, slept. :)